The Girl

school life sucks.

School life sucks,

The school is where most bullies are from,

Why they all hate me I don't even know, yet, maybe I do, this is hard, I'm fat, I'm ugly, I'm a depressed freak,

Depression is like drowning but seeing everyone around you breathing,

You suffer in silence,

No one realises, they this that because you can smile and say those words 'I'm fine' they think you really are fine and don't hesitate to move on in their life.

Legend says that at night, when you can't sleep, its because you're in someone's dream, I'm probably the girl in the corner being bullied as I can never sleep, for instance last night I went to sleep at 3.07am, even then I woke up at six.

Everyday I think to myself, this isn't life, this is living hell. I cannot do this any longer,

Then I think of God, 'he put me on this planet for a reason' 'yeah, to suffer' 'no because he wants you to find your own purpose, if he gave it to you straight away, your life would be ended already' 'I wish he had' 'no you don't, then yojh would not of met the amazing people in this life' 'you don't realise how much this hurts'

Honestly its like I'm Gollum and Shemegal from Lord of the ring.

School is where I get scared.

It takes every ounce of courage I have to get myself into class everyday. Its just so hard.

'Stay strong' I think to myself every day, 'don't let them see you like this' I think as I wipe away the remains of eyeliner from down my face.

As I walk into class, I see every one, all happy and glammed up. Then I think of myself, ugly worthless piece of shit!

I don't fit in here.

This is my eighth school, I don't fit in anywhere!

My dad was in the army and we moved a lot, I suppose it stays with me, you know like when you get a scar, it stays with you and you can't get rid of it without any help.

My dad left the army when I was in year six, at that time I went to a school called shaccledon and that's where I got badly bullied.

Then I moved to high school, this one was called Honour school.

I got bullied there and attempted suicide.

My muttër found out and moved my school again, to the school of Fally.

I'm still here now.