Famous One (Perrie Edwards)

19- The glass is half full, not half empty

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I was rocking back in forth at the back of the black seven seater car like a maniac. My palms are sweating, my heart is pounding and it feels like it's gonna take off any minute now and I have a sickening feeling in my stomach.

"Please can you just calm down Anna?" Perrie pulled my shoulders back into the chair. "Everything is gonna be fine." She assured me.

"No it's not. What if she doesn't like me?" I stressed.

"Perrie's Mum puts up with us three, so why would she not like you?" Jesy stated referring to her, Leigh and Jade.

"But this is different, her long lost daughter is turning up to her door out of the blue. It seems like a shocking thing for anyone to experience." I said whilst biting my nails.

"I'm sure my Mum will love you no matter what you are to us. No matter if you are family or not." Perrie hugged me side ways.

I sighed trying to get rid of the nerves but they soon came back.

"Really?" I near enough whispered.

"I'm sure of it." She smiled.

"But Anna, you you need to stop being so negative. The glass is always half full not half empty." Jade said. I nodded understanding what she was saying.

"Are we nearly there yet?" LeighAnne shouted to the car driver.

"Nearly! About 30 minutes of a drive left.

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Well, if it wasn't for traffic we would of been at Perrie's house over 30 minutes ago. Just if there were wider roads right now, there would be no traffic.

"Maybe this is sign. Maybe I shouldn't be meeting her. Maybe it's not suppose to be." I panicked. "If there was no traffic we could turn right back around."

"Anna, chill." Leigh turned around in her seat in front of us and said.

I breathed out a long breath.

"Let's put the radio on to clear your mind." Jesy, who was sat in the passenger seat, pushed a button on the stereo to play the music.

"Mama, I love you. Mama, I care." The Spice Girls song 'Mama' started playing.

"Not helping!" I rolled down the window to get fresh air. I stuck my tongue out like a dog and I don't care what anyone thinks.

Jesy quickly changed the station. 'Girls' by The 1975 started playing. I beamed in my seat with excitement to one of my favourite songs.

I sang the lyrics which calmed me down a bit.

Why can't be more like Perrie. She never seems to ever get nervous. If she wants to meet Derrick, I hope she gets as nervous as I am meeting her Mum, which we are sure she is mine too.

That's actually made me think, Perrie hasn't really said anything about Derrick, but in my situation it is a good thing. I don't want her anywhere near him. She still doesn't know about my past but I'm sure it doesn't really matter because I'm living a different lifestyle now.

I felt the car rolling forward. I looked out the window to see the traffic was starting to move.

"Yay, we are moving." We all cheered.

Eventually, we made it away from the road with traffic and we are getting closer to her house.

'Okay. I'm gonna be okay. I am happy and smiley and-"

"You are talking to yourself, why?" Leigh asked cutting off my thoughts in which I was speaking out loud.

"Yes but I don't care because I am so happy right now." I smiled ear to ear.

"Who am I kidding? I'm shitting myself. I'm just trying to tell myself I am okay. I feel so sick." My smile dropped completely. I rubbed my belly to relieve the sick feeling.

"Here drink some water." Made handed me her half empty bottle. I MEAN HALF FULL.

I took a big gulp of the water and I still felt sick. These nerves are not going away. It might sound like I'm being dramatic but I'm scared and I just can't explain why.

"I promise you, everything will be fine. How many times do I have to tell you chick?" Perrie said while stroking my blonde hair.

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I step out the car. My legs feel like jelly and it feels like I'm going to fall over if I attempt to walk.

I see the front door, my thoughts are over taken by negative thoughts.

'What if she doesn't like me?'

'What if she doesn't even care.'

'What if she rejects me?'

'What if she doesn't even remember me?'

That last thought hit me hard. I'll probably be just a random girl who looks like her daughter trying to claim her as my Mother. She might not even be my Mum. Me and Perrie automatically thought we were sisters as soon as we met but we could be wrong.

"Are you ready?" Jesy hugged me from the side. I hesitated to nod but I made some sort of movement.

"Does she even know we are here?" I asked.

"Nope. I thought I'd surprise her." Perrie said whilst straightening up her jacket after climbing out the car.

"C'mon then." Perrie and I linked arms as we walked up to the front door, with her slightly walking faster then I was.

Perrie knocked.

No answer.

She knocked again.

Still no answer.

I knocked this time but harder to make a louder sound.

Still no answer.

"If this is your house, why don't we just walk in?" I stated.

"Like I said, I wanted it to be a surprise but let's just go in." She grabbed the door handle and pushed it down.

It's locked.

"Great. We just had to come at a time she wouldn't be in." Perrie huffed out a breath and dragged me away from the door.

"Like I said, maybe someone's trying to tell me something." I sang as I folded my arms.

"Shut up." Perrie nudged me in the arm as I giggled.

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