To the love of my life,
I will start by saying I'm head over heels for you, you know that by now. It is almost our one year. The longest relationship I have ever been in. I'm so thankful for you, words can never explain how thankful I am for you. You are always on my mind. We have our ups and downs but we always get through it.
The first time I met you, I had a real good feeling that we were going to be with each other for awhile. You picked me up from work. I was super scared because I was wearing my work uniform and I do not rock it even though you think I can. I went home and changed and then we went to the park, and we just talked for a little bit. I even remember that you were already slapping my ass. You showed me where you got into a car accident. I remember as you were explaining you turned to look at me and said "Fuck! Your eyes are beautiful". From there we went to Wendy's and got Frostys, we were both broke so we both were trying to find any change we had. We ate them in the parking lot of Lowes, we just talked and talked. Our conversations flew so naturally, it wasn't difficult for us at all. I wanted you to kiss me, it looked like you wanted to but you just couldn't grow the balls to do it. I ended up making the first move, I mean you kissed me back so I did good then. After the kiss, you were in shock. Told me how you were trying to but you just couldn't.
We went back to your house....on the first date. I didn't really know what you had up your sleeve. But both of your parents were gone so I could only assume. We ended up kissing in your bed when we heard a car pull up. It was your mom and you jumped up scared as hell. She came into the house and you went out to greet her as you told me to stay in your room. You came back in and told me come out to the living room with you. Your mom was standing there and I almost shit my pants. I remember her saying "Doing the walk of shame"......but we didn't do anything.
The funny thing is I was just talking to your mom about how she never knew the day she met me was the day you met me. I also told her we didn't do anything but she just said to me well he was trying to hide you so it seemed suspicious.
At the time you guys had kittens and I fucking love cats! I got to see the kittens and holy cow...I still want one. But you quickly wanted to go which was understandable. You took me home and I got your sweatshirt. I can't even tell you how great our first date was. We made plans to hang out the next day.
Can't say I remember much from the next day but I know that is was great because I wanted to see you again. I do remember making plans to hang out on Saturday, we were currently on Thursday. I said I would see you on Saturday and you got offended. You said " Why can't I see you tomorrow". I would take any chance to see you, I was so happy that you wanted to see me and couldn't wait one day. It showed me that you really wanted to see me. The fact that you are willing to drive to come see me already showed me.
The fact that you would ask to see me or ask to FaceTime, and it wouldn't just be me asking. I felt like I was so used to asking to see someone and it made me feel like they didn't really want to see me. Felt like I was forcing them to come see me. That doesn't make anyone feel good.
A month flew by, we were doing fun things with your friends. I met your mom and brother properly, I didn't meet your dad yet. We weren't boyfriend and girlfriend yet even though you were telling people that I was your girlfriend. I didn't want to rush a relationship, I wanted to make sure we got to know each other first. I just felt like rushing into relationships could be a reason why they don't end up working.
But October 17, 2018, you helped me close at work and we went back to my house. It was a school night so you couldn't stay long but it was just enough. A couple nights before, we were talking over FaceTime and I asked you if you were ever going to ask me to be your girlfriend. I wanted to know if we were official. You said that the next time you saw me in person you would ask me, you said you had to ask in person or it wouldn't feel right.
We got home and we were both tired. I was working and you were still in high school and had a job after school. We sat on the couch and snuggled. I wanted to bring up the boyfriend and girlfriend thing but I just thought you probably forgot. I mean in the small amount of time we knew each other, I could already call you my best friend. I sat up straight while holding your hand and you looked at me and asked me to be your girlfriend. I said yes. I wouldn't be writing this if I said no. I was super excited but you had to leave since it was already 10, and you had a half an hour drive home. So I let you go home and told you to text me when you got home so I would know you were safe. That is what I do all the time now, you know that's how it works now.
-11:22 pm-
