After Seattle, everything was just normal. We just hung out when we could. I know that you were busy and I know I would throw fits when I couldn't see you enough...I'm sorry. But I'm thankful for what I got. I'm sitting here writing this now almost going on three months of not seeing you. I wish I was a little bit more thankful for what I got when you were here.
You know sitting here while you are away. To never know that you are safe and to know that you aren't close to me. I was able to take an Uber and see you in thirty minutes. I don't even know where you are right now. I wish this was easy for me. I mean my best friend moved away to another state, I should be able to deal with this kind of pain.
It's hard to sit down and type. Good memories make me cry even more. I go out and I have no hand to hold. Or no one to wake up too. I mean I've made it most days but currently it hasn't been too easy. I know you will be home in two weeks but I'm scared. I mean work keeps me busy but when I'm by myself it's not as easy. I miss my cuddle buddy.....
But within the time of us just doing our usual hangouts, it was snowing and a lot of snow. It was late January so it didn't help in our favor. It made things difficult but you still drove up to me.
We went sledding with your brother but that didn't last very long. We went back to my house and played video games. You were tired so you just took a nap on me.
We eventually got to February 14th or I mean that weekend. We went on a hike to celebrate, we thought it would be fun to see the sunrise. You came and got me at 5:30, I barley woke up. I didn't even think that there could be snow on our hike...I wore Nikes. That was not a good idea.
It was already bad going up, I was complaining which was annoying you. I didn't plan well which came to bite us both in the ass. We still went up though, had a lot of people telling me that I wore the wrong shoes....which I fucking knew.
We got to the top which took a long time. We enjoyed the snow and took a rest before going down. I thought going up was bad but down was WAY worse.
I was slipping every second, I was having a break down. You kept your arm around my waist, almost carry my weight. You caught me from falling sometimes but other times I pulled you down with me. We had our fair share of falling in front of people.
Once we were getting to the bottom, we were at each others throats more. We were arguing over dumb little things. We were both tired and pissed. You were complaining about how I was going slow. I told you to go then and I would meet you at the bottom. You said the cutest thing, "We are in this together". But then you said that you weren't going to leave me abandoned on a mountain.
Getting back down to the car was the best thing ever. We were hungry and our butts hurt. We went to find food in the town after warming up in the car. I know that I was still mad because I wanted it to be a perfect date but because of me not planning it turned to shit. But now it's a good story to tell the kids.
We found lunch at this expensive cafe in town. It was really good, I'm pretty sure they had good butter for the waffles. I know I'm crazy, maybe it was just because I was hungry. But it was really good. We ended up walking around the town after, hand in hand.
We ended up going back to your house and we both passed out. I mean we did get up at five so it didn't take long for us to fall asleep. It's so nice to fall asleep next to you and wake up to you. It's one of the best things ever. I mean all we usually do is cuddle.
When you were taking me home we stopped at Walmart. You explained to me that you hadn't had time to get me something for Valentines. I mean sure I was sad but I'm not the person to get really caught on that. You knew that I always wanted to have a huge teddy bear to cuddle with when you weren't there.
So you got me a teddy bear and a dead plant. You said it was just blooming but sorry babe it wasn't. My sister thought it was hilarious but it wasn't too romantic. I still got a big teddy bear out of it!
Either way, I love you and the presents have never mattered to me. That was honestly the last thing that would matter to me. I rather be with you and cuddle. Kisses are a good present.
But the thing about me is receiving presents never mattered to me but giving did. I love giving presents and I usually go overboard. I ended up getting you a collage of us for you to hang on your wall. I put it in a case and everything. I was super happy with it, I almost wanted to keep it for myself.
I also got you a book with reasons I love you. I decorated the book with Polaroid pictures of me and cute cat stickers. I did get you candy but you never ate it, it is still sitting on your table fully wrapped.
You seemed happy with the presents, I mean I can't speak for you but I think I did a good job. I was pretty happy after giving you the presents. Can't say our day was perfect but I can say that we have a story to tell people now.
11:34 pm
