Ghost Of You

Chapter 22

"Ghost Of You" Chapter 22

Selena’s P.O.V

Gatsby believed in the green light, the orgastic future that year by year recedes before us. It eluded us then, but that’s no matter — tomorrow we will run faster, stretch out our arms farther… And one fine morning —

“So we beat on, boats against the current, borne back ceaselessly into the past.”

I read the last lines of The Great Gatsby and closed the book as Justin kissed his way up my legs that were currently left naked, wrapped in his sheets.

"I like that book the best so far." Justin’s voice was mumbled and he finally looked at me with piercing eyes, "Even though I usually hate it."

"I told you that you would." I put the book on the table next to his bed, "I don’t know why you insist that Fitzgerald can’t write."

"He’s just never done anything for me." Justin stopped his kissing and came to lie next to me.

It was the end of October, only two days before Halloween and I was more than willing to just sit in Justin’s house and read forever.

I had gone through about five novels in the span of four days. I would read a little from each of them every night and if I was staying over Justin’s, he wouldn’t let me go to sleep unless I read to him. It was “our thing” I guess and I didn’t understand what it was but Justin always seemed turned on by me reading so that would merge into late night love making sessions that nevertired me out.

After the first initial shock of Justin’s veracious sexual appetite, I realized that it wasn’t an odd thing to go two, three rounds in a night and we would be dog tiredby the next morning but I didn’t care. He was incredible and taught me things about my body that I didn’t ever think were possible. The way I screamed from pleasure should have brought the ceilings down. I was turning into a nymphomaniac because all I thought about was fucking Justin if we were apart and I literally counted down the minutes until I could see him again.

It was pathetic but I didn’t have any way of explaining it.

No matter what it was, Justin and I were fucking like rabbits and I was slowly getting used to being in his bed when I went to sleep as well as when I woke up. In the past week, I think I’ve slept in my dorm maybe once and that was only because I had a group study session that night.

Justin and I had settled into a very comfortable routine. Every afternoon, he would either pick me up or I would just walk to his apartment, which wasn’t that far away. Sometimes Olivia would walk with me and stop off at Finn’s but most of the time, it was just me alone.

I didn’t have a key to the place and I had to ask the man at the front desk for a new one every time. I would hold onto it like a lifeline in my pocket or book bag but whenever I would look for the damned thing, it was gone. I had a suspicion that Justin was taking them while I slept but I hadn’t approached him about it yet.

If Justin was home when I came up, then we would order dinner and he made me do homework before the real fun began. We would lock ourselves in his room, reading, having sex, talking.

If he wasn’t home then I would just wait until he got back from work before jumping him like a crazed groupie.

That was basically it.

Nothing too exciting to report but it was nice to just spend time together with Justin because I was falling more in love and I didn’t know how to tell him.

That was my main problem as of now. I didn’t know what to say. Was it too soon for that? Was I just crazy? Did Justin even care? I was going crazy just thinking about it all when I slept so I tried to go with the flow but there was always this bell in the back of my head that would ring whenever Justin touched me or kissed me or looked at me. After awhile, the bell seemed to be chiming three words: I love you.