I'm writing this before I sleep right now.
I had a feeling that today wasn't going to be a good day. It was peaceful for the most part, but it had its downs.
I don't want to forget this in my sleep so I'm writing it down here. That's what this book was made for.
Now, I feel like a really shitty person.
The weather could be better.
I got sent to the counselors office.
I feel like I can't trust anybody to share my problems now.
I vented to this one teacher in school and she just told the counselor.
Don't get me wrong, the teacher is AMAZING and really nice, but she told.
And I know it's probably a policy to share out of a student is in danger, but still.
I lied to my counselor and the teacher about hurting myself. I told them that I didn't have those thoughts since last year, but in reality, I thought of it yesterday.
Even now I'm thinking about it, my scissors are right by me, so why don't I?
Cause I know it's not going to help me. Even if I do have a craving for it, it won't help.
It's hard though. The craving is really strong.
Anyways, that's that.
I feel like all I do is hurt everyone. My emotions are just unstable and I only care about myself, I just want to talk about myself and I hate it.
People say that I'm nice and all the stuff, but I don't believe it. I'm not and I hurt people
People don't know my Wattpad
My friends don't know of it either
They won't see this but this is an apology
To all the people I've hurt in this lifetime
Heck, in all of my life times.
I'm sorry.
Good night
