Sorry for the title, I promise the vent isn't as bad as the last ones.
I don't really care if she sees this at this point if she does read this.
I'm going to start from the beginning. A few weeks ago I broke up with my gf, it was hard at first but then I sorta just moved on with my life.
She said we could still be friends and I believed it as first. As time went on I knew that it wasn't actually going to happen. I've been in this scenario before and the relationship just fades.
I was okay with that.
I was over her until now. Everytime I see an updated or a photo from her I miss her a lot. It really makes me upset to once I've realized that I'm not ready to move on.
I told myself, "why put in effort towards someone if they don't want to talk to you?"
But I still want to put in effort, I want to talk to her again. I feel like I ended with a bad note.
Out of the 4 relationships I've had, she's the one who I probably put all my emotions into.
It hurts knowing that I can't talk to her ever again and if I did try then I'll probably be labeled as clingy.
I'm crying again and I feel like I can't breathe.
I feel like she hates me and I can't live with that.
