Trigger Warning. Like real trigger warning
I really just need my scissors. If I have my scissors, I'll be okay. I'll make up for my mistakes with the blade. It's not like anyone cares here.
I crave the feeling. That's my punishment.'I'm a bad girl.
I scare myself because I feel like if I wanted to stab myself, I could go through with it.
And I really want to. It's my punishment for being bad.
I can't do that though.
So I just need my scissors for a small punishment.
I just need to feel something right now.
My nails don't give me enough of a feeling.
My mom wants to take us to a restaurant but I'm not hungry anymore. I don't want to eat at all anymore. That's another punishment that I deserve. Sometimes, I wish I can give stuff back because I don't deserve stuff.
I really want to commit suicide.
I never asked to live, I never asked for your expectations. Everyone would be better in my family if I was gone