Connecting/Thoughts

Thought #3

Y'know, those times when you think you have it all, but then the next moment...You have nothing? Well, yeah, I'm in one of those places. I have everything I need. I have wonderful friends, my family is happy, I am keeping up with school. I have...Everything. But...If feels like whenever these times occur, I feel like I am missing something. I always think, "there has to be something wrong". What am I possibly missing? Well...I have everything. I just get so used to having bad days. It always feels like a half of me is missing when I don't have a challenge in my way. Because I realize, having a hard time in life is what pushes me. I have become used to stepping into a dark abyss, unknown to others, the only footsteps that lay there are mine. I'm used to the dust that flies into the air when I plant my foot down in the darkness. I am used to the pain that shoots through me when my own tears sting my cheeks. The hot tears spilling down leaving tracks on my skin. I'm accustomed to stepping in that dark space. Into my dark memories. Into my own ocean of tears that I seem to always drown myself in. But...When everything is fine, it's scary to be able to swim above my ocean of tears. To be able to float without kicking my legs for freedom. It's a scary feeling. It's a scary feeling to see a light in the dark abyss of memories. It's weird to see all of the black smoke clear away so I can walk into the light, following a new path. But, I guess us humans deserve a break once in a while. So when we are plunged back into the ocean of tears we know how to swim. So when we are pushed back into the dark void of memories we know how to see. So when we fall we know how to get back up onto our feet. It's a vicious cycle, but it's what makes the world go round. What would life be without the hardship? We would all be bored out of our minds. So maybe we should thank some of the challenges that stand in our way. Because those challenges are what makes us stronger.