Loving the Real E

Ashante POV Part 3 (10.)

It felt so good to let it all out with Erik. I don't know what I was thinking, keeping all of this bottled in. He looked so hurt and angry at the same time, I could only imagine the things he had running through his mind.

But when he held me and I felt his lips touching my skin, it felt like the most natural feeling in the world, like he should be kissing me all the time.

Enough was enough and I wanted my man back.

Two breakdowns in one day had my head spinning like crazy. When E sent me inside, I knew he was going on a mission to find Shaun. I just wanted to shower and lay down. I completely forgot about my food and bags in his car. Thankfully, he said he'd return so I wasn't too worried.

I went inside the house and for a second something felt off. I'm not sure if it was colder than how I left it....but the thermostat was stll on 69°. The windows weren't open. Something just felt wrong.

I headed upstairs to my bedroom and began taking off my turtleneck and scrub top. I had a bathroom in my bedroom which I loved because Momma and Nana would take forever getting ready, I think they're who I get it from.

When Daddy built this house he said he needed to have ten bathrooms in it because the women in his life will find a way to occupy nine of them at once. We had six though, one in each bedroom and two downstairs.

As stripped out of my scrub pants I went to turn on the water for a shower. Looking in the mirror at my bruises, I felt ashamed all over again.
I tried to shake off the feeling and went back to the bedroom.

When I returned I saw someone standing in my doorway. Realizing who it was, I jumped onto my bed, ran across to the window and tried to scream, hoping Erik was still outside.

Shaun grabbed me back by my hair and covered my mouth.

"Where the fuck you think you going?" he said aggressively.

I screamed and tried to fight him off. His eyes were bloodshot red and I could smell on his breath that he had been drinking Hennessy.

"YOU FUCKING TOLD THAT NIGGA DIDN'T YOU!" he shouted, throwing me against my full bodied mirror behind me.

It shattered.

"DIDN'T YOU!" he said again.

I couldn't answer. My ears were ringing and I felt my face was wet. I didnt even realize I had started to cry. I tried to hit him but he blocked my hits. Using anything I could get a hold of, medical books, the lamp from my desk, I tossed it all at him.

He smirked at me and then smacked me hard. I fell onto the bed.

"This was all I wanted the whole time Princess."

When he said my name my body cringed. He never really called me that but I knew he was mocking me.

My father always called me Princess since the day I was born. He somehow got the nickname to grow on the whole neighborhood. But Shaun never called me by the pet name, which I didn't mind because it never felt right when he said it.

"Please don't do this!" I begged, trying to get up. He held me down by my throat and started to unbuckle his pants. I panicked.

"Please dont!!" were the last words I could utter out before he squeezed tighter on my neck. He bent down closer to me attempting to remove my panties.

"Don't worry baby, I'll be quick" he said lightly.

I closed my eyes in fear. Was he really about to rape me? Everything was a daze and I was sure I had a concussion. I couldn't control my tears and I couldn't move my body. I felt myself losing consciousness as my eyelids slid low.

Then I felt a release and began coughing. I fell to the floor and scooted over to the corner trying to figure out what happened and then I saw him.

Erik had grabbed Shaun and in that split second, had him on the floor, pounding him out continuously. He kept hitting him and wouldn't stop.

"YOU FUCKING BITCH!...YOU HIT MY GIRL!...YOU THOUGHT YOU WAS GOIN TAKE MY PUSSY!....BITCH....ASS.... NIGGA!"

Erik kept going as I cried in the corner. I noticed Shaun not fighting back, which indicated he was either unconscious or dead. I tried to get Erick to stop but he couldn't hear me.
It was like he was a different person.

Hello Killa E.

I tried my hardest to get him to snap out of it but I couldn't move from the spot I was in.

"E...BABY STOP!" I cried

He kept going.

"ERIK STOP!...PLEASE BABY!...E!!" I cried.

He still wouldn't let him go. Blood splattered all over as Erik continued.

"DADDY STOP!"

Just like that his hand held in place, not giving Shaun another blow. The room got quiet as Erik panted heavily.

He slowly backed away from Shaun and found a spot opposite from me, against the wall. Looking at his hands which were bruised and swollen, he continued to breathe heavily. I slowly made my way to an unrecognizable Shaun and hesitantly checked his pulse

He didnt have one.

I crawled over to Erik. He kept breathing heavy and I could've sworn steam was coming out of his ears like in the cartoons. I put my hands on his face.

"It's ok baby....Daddy I'm ok" I said to him. He still looked out of it but when he glanced up at me it was almost like that brought him back to reality.

A tear fell from his eye as I got closer to him and crawled into his arms.

"I'm ok Daddy....it's ok....it's ok" I cried to him. While I wiped his tear away, he grabbed me in and pulled me close. I broke down again and he rocked with me in his arms.

"I'm sorry baby....I'm sorry" he whispered.

"It's ok Daddy....I'm ok....I'm o..."

I don't remember anything else after that.

When I woke up again, I was laying in Erik's bed in his condo, wearing his T shirt, with an IV in my arm. Lauren, Steelo, Momma Michelle and Erik were all there as well.

"Ayo she's waking up" I heard Steelo say.

Lauren ran to me right away and began checking my eyes.

"Shon...can you hear me Princess?"