December 30th 1940,
Warsaw Ghetto, PolandDear Isabell,
Happy New Year.
I hope the year of 1941,
will bring both of us a better year.
I hope the war ends
and all the prisoners of the war
will be liberated
and we will go back to the way
it used to be,
before the war.
I hope your parents will be found
and reunited with you
at your parents' home
for next Christmas.
I hope we could be possible.
If you feel the same for me,
as I'm feeling for you.
From
Anton.I put down the pen next to my notebook. I was sitting behind my desk, taking a break from writing down the numbers of orders. I was sitting inside freezing. I blew my warm breath down at my hands. There were no heating inside of my office, because the supplies had broken down weeks earlier and I had no winter coat. I had handed it away to the blond girl, weeks before. But I'd rather be freezing, than living with a bad conscious. It had stopped snowing a few days earlier, but it was still cold and depressing outside. Sitting inside my office was depressing too, but at least I could be alone and freed from witnessing the Ghetto's horror outside. In my office, there was no one else, but me and quiet. I was hiding. Trying to stay away.
The door to my office was opened and Pierre entered through. I had been daydreaming, as usually. Trying to escape. Pierre widened his eyes, when he saw me.
-"Anton! Aren't you dying here, it's freezing cold!" Pierre broke out. His face was pale, from the cold. I shook my head.
-"No, not at all." I lied, though I was dying inside. But I was mostly from the fact that I didn't know how Isabell was.
-"Where's your coat?" Pierre frowned at his nose. He was clearly unpleased and looked oddly at my uniform.
-"It's..." My words dried out. Pierre looked confused at me.
-"It's... I lost it." I lied and tried to smile to make the situation more natural. Pierre shook on his head and crossed his arms.
-"Why am I not surprised? You're such a mess, Anton. Please, pull yourself together." Pierre corrected me, like I was a child. I lifted on my left eyebrow.
-"I am pulling myself together and as far, as I know you wouldn't give a damn about me anyway?" I stood up from my chair and looked Pierre angrily in the eye. I might have been one inch lower than Pierre, but I wasn't scared of him. Pierre was a pussy, when it all came to it all and he had it all in his mouth. Pierre laughed sarcastic.
-"What are you talking about, Anton?" Pierre looked foolish around. I grabbed angry onto Pierre's uniform and pulled him up with all my strength.
-"You know exactly what I mean, Pierre! You've been freezing me out and stabbing me in the back. Wasn't we suppose to be best friends, pal?" I raised my voice. Pierre looked worried at me.
-"Relax Anton, you simply just didn't do as ordered. You minded your own business and didn't think about anyone else, but yourself. It's not like I broke up with you." Pierre tried to defend himself, but it didn't touch me.
-"Bullshit. Maybe you should mind your own business?" I was this close at kicking him in the face.
-"Why have you gotten all this emotional, since we joined the Gestapo? Do you have a pinched nerve, Anton?" Pierre tried to figure me out. F*ck.
-"F*ck off, Pierre." I pushed Pierre away from me. Pierre smirked.
-"So that's it? Was that it? You're not a trader, right, Anton?" Pierre kept smirking at me.
-"No, of course not." I looked away from Pierre.
-"I... I hate those Jews... those bastards..." I fumbled with my words.
-"Sure." Pierre leaned up against the wall. I took my notebook on my desk and the letter to Isabell.
-"I have to go inspect the deliveries." I lied and hurried out of the office without looking back.
-"See you later, Anton!" I heard, before I slammed the door behind me.F*ck Pierre and all of this bullshit. This Nazi bullshit. I walked down the few steps and turned left. What the hell had I been thinking? Joining this Nazi regime without even knowing what I was fighting for or doing? Establishing Ghettos, where people starved, was robbed from their identity, their things, starved, beaten, rapped... How could I have been this naive? I turned left and up another few steps, heading for the post-office. I believe, some people are just naive, like myself. Perhaps all of Germany's population had been naive, for not seeing the warning signs? All this race-related posters explaining how to see the difference between a Jew and a Arie, how to enclose them from the companies, stores and schools. Was we completely insane? I pulled my hair back nervously. My hands was shaking, when I opened the door to the post-office. Inside there was as usually empty, beside from the two Jewish men sitting behind a desk. They both looked with a nervous face up me.
-"Would you please post this for me?" I handed out the letter to Isabell to one of the men. The man took it and nodded at me.
-"Yes, sir." The man almost whispered.
-"Thank you." I turned around and walked out of the office again.
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The Promise
Historical FictionWhen a Nazi soldier meets a Jewish girl, who's on the run with her family from the Gestapo, everything seems to change in Anton Engel's perspective of Germany. When Anton promises the Jewish girl Isabell for ever commitment and protection, he never...