"Nothing It's nothing." He says abruptly as he unwraps his arms from around me and avoids my eyes by staring at the pond; he continues to bite his lip.
"Kyle I know you and this obviously isn't nothing and it not something small either. Your practically chewing your lip off." I say.
"Don't worry about me bethany really it's no big deal I"m fine." He says meeting my eyes again with a small fake smile that I see right through.
Kyle leans forward trying to place a light kiss on my lips but I angle my head down so his lips meet my forhead instead. he leans back stiffly I stare into his eyes with a saddened look. "Please Bethany just let it go I swear its nothing."
"Kyle it's not nothing and your a really bad liar is this about what you said at the hospital about wanting to be able to tell me everything but not being ready?"
Kyle looks at his hands shyly and then meets my eyes again and nods.
I look down at his hands and slide my hands under his curling the tips of our fingers together.
"Kyle please..." I plead. He looks into my eyes and then back down at his hands. "Maybe I can help."
"No you can't!" He yells suddenly pulling his hands away and standing up, he starts pacing. "You can't make everything better Bethany I wish you could but you can't! You wouldn't understand and I don't wanna drag you into this shit I'm dealing with. I can't do this right now!" He's crying now the tears are streaming down his like waterfall's. I see the tremendous amount of pain he's keeping inside of him. The fear in his eye's tell's me this is something bigger than I thought I don't even know what it is but it must be really bad.
He turns and starts walking away from me. "Kyle!" I say jumping up to follow him. "Where are you going?!" He doesn't answer he just quickens his pace. "Kyle!" I yell. I run after him and grab his elbowwhich cause his sleeve to come up a few inches on his sweater and then i freeze and so does he. but we are not frozen over the same thing Kyle freezes because I grab his arm. I on the other hand am frozen staring at the revealed part of his wrist. He looks at me and see;s where my gaze rests and he freezes again tears still running from his eyes as he looks at me sadly and jerks his arm away.
I try to process what I just saw, the many cuts some almost healed other looking like they were from as soon as this morning. Trailing up kyles pale wrists I didn't think Kyle would ever be the kind of person that would cut... I guess I was wrong.
"Kyle..." I say as he stares at me with so much sadness in his eyes. He stares at me in silence for a moment before turning and running the other way. I don't try to follow him not this time I wouldn't know what to say. This is crazier then I ever could've imagined and i have no clue what to do.
I text skylar.
Bethany: Meet me outside the school in 15 minute please I need to go home.
Skylar: Okay
I get back to the school and Skylar is waiting in her car. I open the door sit down, close the door and jerk my seatbelt on.
"What's wrong Bethany?" Skylar asks startled.
"Nothing I just don't feel good." I say breifly.
"Bethany I know thats not it I can see you've been crying."
"It's nothing okay!" I yell sharply.
"Bethany your tough you don't cry over just anything what happened?" I start crying uncontrolably. "Did something happen between you and Kyle?"
"Yes... we got in a fight." I realize how ridiculous this sounds maybe we never should've started dating. We hadn't even been together for to weeks and we're already having problems.
"About what?" Skylar asks rubbing my back trying to calm me down.
"Remember how I told you my mom said Kyle had some stuff going on?"
"ya..."
"I questioned him on it cause im a complete idoit, I should've just left it alone. When I asked him him the colour drained from his face. He tried to pretend it was nothing but i knew it wasn't nothing and I pushed him on it... He flipped out and he tried ti just walk away and i grabbedhis wrist and and...." I burst out into another fit of tears.
"It's okay." skylar says soothingly. "And what?"
"there were so many scars and cuts Skylar all over his wrists. I was stupid he realized I saw and I just let him walk away! Who knows what he'll do I shouldn't have let him walk away!" I'm having trouble breathing now I'm gasping for air trying to calm down.
"Breathe Bethany breathe." says Skylar who I can tell is shocked. "are you sure?"
"Yes I know what I saw." I say starting to calm down. "we never should've started dating."
"Don't say that Bethany that's not true. It's obvious he likes you maybe he just needs a little space."
"It's not space that's the issue something's going on with him he wouldn't do this if it wasn't something big."
"Homecoming is tomorrow I'm sure he'll come around by then he won't ditch you."
"I don't think he's gonna come to me Sky I'm gonna go to him I can't leave thing's like this it's to serious and I don't want him to hurt him self anymore." I say seriously.
"Okay it's your call. Where do you think he went?"
"I honestly have no clue. He doesn't have a ride that I know of since he took the bus to school. I don't know if he'd try to walk home or not I can't think of anywhere else he'd go though."
"Do you want me to drive you or do you just want to take my car, I understand if you wanna do this alone."
"If it's okay I'd rather just take your car."
"fine by me I really shouldn't miss anymore classes." says Skylar as we both start to get out of the car so I can switch to the drivers side."good luck I'm sure everything will turn out fine."
"I hope so." I say quietly as I pull away from the school and drive in the direction of Kyles house.
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A.N: Hey guys I'm sorry I haven't posted in forever I really don't have a good excuse for most of the time. The last month my laptop was broke finally got it fixed yesterday but before that I honestly have no valid reason for not updating. I know five months is ridiculous holycrap can't beleive it's been that long. I promise I'll be quicker updating. Anyway till then love you all!
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Teen Fiction16 year old Bethany's small family is not exactly well off. Her father left shortly after her little sister was born. Her mom tries to support their family but often struggles to put food on the table. Bethany decides she's going to try to help o...
