Promise Me - Namjin/Vmon

Chapter 21: Runaway they say

"Hoseok!!!"

I heard Namjoon calling my name, the voice echoed throughout the hall as I ran at full speed. It pained me so much, to the point that I just want to perish away from the world. I heard footstep chasing after me, but it stopped midway when I reached the stairs. Namjoon didn't chase me any further, it really didn't bother me much, I can't face him right now.

Every muscle on my body screams pain, my heart was beating so fast and the unwelcoming tears were on the verge to fall. I just ran like a madman, not knowing where exactly am I heading to.

I exited the apartment, entering the road. Heaving pants left my mouth as I kept on running, a couple tilted their head questionably seeing me passing through. The dog raised one of his legs to the electric pole and pee, some old grandma passing the road, they all seemed to doing fine. Yet here I am, with a fuzzy mind and ached heart, I don't know where to run to.

"I... I'm sorry. I like you too but, not in the way you felt towards me..."

The words surfed through my mind. I halted a bit but then continue running. I felt so... ashamed. I felt like a stupid jerk who thought that his feeling can be returned, that it's fine to like your friend despite knowing that it's the impossible. I didn't know what come to my mind, I just didn't get why I confessed to Namjoon just like that. I should've suspect himself for feeling weirdly attracted to him, yet all I did was let it control my stupid mind. I was a fool, a fool for believing that all this bullshit could worked out.

As negative thoughts wandering around my brain, I accidentally stumbled on a rock and fall down with my face hitting the land real hard. It was a harsh fall.

"Argh..." I groaned out while slowly pushed my body up with both hands. A single drop of blood fall down my white shirt, staining the whiteness. Moving up a hand to cup my cheek, a sudden pain ran down my spine. It hurts like hell, but my heart hurt even more. Using a hand to push my body up, I wobbly stand up. Wiping the blood that kept running down my nose away harshly, my noodle legs try to run again. However, one of my knees now had bruises badly and it pained to even lift my legs up.

I sighed desperately dragging my leg as I looked for somewhere to sit down. Now that I noticed I was standing in a park, all alone since it's quite late in the noon already. I found a bench while wandering around the empty park, dropping my body on the crooked bench, I let out a faint breath.

Observing the surrounding, this looked pretty much like an abandon park. The equipment were all ruined and rusted. Bushes and trees growing in uneven order. The soil lose all of it's nutrition so all of the plants were yellow. This place looked so wrecked that even I have come to pity it, even though I'm the one who needed the comfort here.

Creaking sound were made when I lifted his legs to lie down completely on the bench. Not caring that the annoying bangs are blinding my visions, I stared blankly at the faint orange sky. By coming to this place by "accident" and having no idea on how to turn back, I decided to just lie here and wait till someone showed up and asked them a favor.

As I watched the fluffy cloud slowly moving through the unreachable sky, I pondered about my stupid behavior earlier. How idiotic of me to run away like a coward just because of the shame I couldn't bare. I felt humiliated, even though there is nothing to be humiliate for.

I ran because I couldn't bare the denial, not that I think Namjoon could love me back, It's just embarrassing for me to think that there is a possibility of him liking me back. How bold I was to confess in such a situation, where obviously, the male show a lot more affection towards Taehyung and Seokjin than I was.