Promise Me - Namjin/Vmon

Chapter 24: Life is a bitch

"Hello... Long time no see huh?"

"What are you doing here Jeon Jung Hyun?"

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Jung Hyun sighed, he expected this reaction from Namjoon. He had been staying up late wondering if he should meet the male or not. Hyun gazed at Namjoon adoringly, even after all these years, he's still beautiful. Jeon Jung Hyun regretted what he's done to Namjoon and he's here to confront him.

"I'm here to apologize about what I've done to you Namjoon..."

Namjoon tsked, apologize? After all these time and yet he came here to apologize? He wanted to laugh so bad. He didn't waste any time to send a dagger glare to the male.

"Stop joking around Hyun, I'm not falling for you again if that's what you want. Also, how did you know I'm here?"

"I'm sorry... But please can you listen to me first?" Hyun said, his face already falling, the scene make Namjoon's heart soften a bit. Namjoon had been restraining himself from punching this prick so bad, he thought about Hyun reasons then decided to at least be more reasonable. He thought the male wouldn't have just come here to apologize, there must've been something he's missing.

"Fine, but make it quick. You're wasting my time." Namjoon huffed out annoyingly.

Jung Hyun face beamed up, he quickly explained.

"I know I was an asshole back then. I'm really sorry for treating you that way, it's really hard for me too. I was young and didn't know how to react, I was afraid of being judged too. Because of that, my action humiliate you, I'm so so sorry."

The information take turns to progress in Namjoon's brain. He get what the male was saying, right now he didn't know what he's feeling at all. He's confused.

"So what you're saying was that... You despise me on purpose to avoid being humiliate by the fact that a gay dude is confessing to you?"

"Yes..." The word trailed out of Hyun mouth slow and clear, his head still facing down, he was afraid that Namjoon might get angry any time soon. Either way, he's here to take it all.

A heaving sighed came out of Namjoon mouth. He's tired, from yesterday to today. Every events came slapping at his face every day, Namjoon was tired. He just wanted some rest, was it too bad?

"You know what? Forget it, I don't give a damn anymore alright? Answer me this one question and you get out of here right away."

"I-I okay..." Hyun hesitated, but he knew he wasn't in a situation where he can do whatever he want.

"Do you hate me? From that time, do you really hate me? Am I just a toy to you?" Namjoon asked, a hint of sadness in voice.

The question made Hyun halted, he swiftly turned his head up to face Namjoon. All he could see is a hurtful Namjoon, his face scrunched up and tears threatening to fall. Hyun heart clenched, he wanted to comfort the male. He never hated Namjoon, he never thought of Namjoon as a plaything. His coward self from the past create this path were there's no way to turn back, Hyun knew he should make this clear so that at least Namjoon wouldn't hate him more than he already was.

"No I don't. Namjoon, I know you may not believe me, but I actually love you. I love you from the very beginning. Even after all these years, I couldn't stop thinking about you. That time I saw you coming back from the groceries store, my heart beat lively again, right then I thought of confronting you and stop being a coward. Kim Namjoon, I'm not asking you for forgiveness, I just wanted to make this all clear to you because sometime things isn't just how you think it is..."