Uuuuummm it was actually a really good relationship but I got scared of the way I was feeling and broke it off but never told him why. I still love him but it's not an aching kind of love more of a wish we could have worked out kind of love. But he's moved on and I'm still learning to be more in tap with my feelings and grow as a person. I'll always feel guilty for the way I hurt him. Cause it was pretty bad. We talk and we're on good terms. But seeing him gets tough sometimes, I can't even sum up the courage to look at him for more than 5 seconds. The most painful thing ever is having feelings for someone you can't be with. I hide behind timid smiles and soft hellos when I see him and will never ask him what he thinks about me because I'm afraid his reply will be "I don't". But maybe we cling to the things that makes us bleed because, we'd rather feel the pain in the familiar than the peace in the unknown. I'm going to let it hurt then let it go and if love can fade so can pain.
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Lost + Alone
PoesíaWhat I hope will be a journey of self discovery. Let's lay back, stare at the ceiling, and cry.
