Patawad, Paalam (Jaycel DelosReyes x Ayumi Furukawa) ✓

KATAPUSAN

JAYCEL ANN

"Hi!" Awkward kong bati noong makita ko siya. Para akong bulate na nilagyan ng asin sa sobrang kaba. 'fck, bakit ko pa kasi naisipang gawin ang bagay na 'to'. I mean it's been a long years and I randomly asked her to meet after the long time na walang kahit anung communication with her. She's my ex way back in College and I don't know why I'm doing this. Geez, everyone will be mad if they knew I did this.

"Kanina ka pa? Sorry, traffic kasi." I just offered the chair saka umiling.

"No, kararating ko lang rin." I mentally slapped myself dahil kasinungalingan iyon. 30 mins. na ako rito, hiyang hiya na nga ako sa mga tao at sa staff na kanina pa nagdaraan.

"Kamusta?" Nakangiting tanong mo dahilan para mapitlag ako at kabahan.

"O...order muna tayo." Saka ko tinawag iyong waiter. He handed us the menu then I start scanning the foods naman. 'mahal naman, kala mo ginto yung ingredients e.'

"Caesar salad sa akin."

"Still a small eater, Yumi? Kaya hindi ka tumataba. Kawayan ka pa rin." Nang-aasar na komento ko. Inirapan mo naman ako.

"Figure conscious lang, Jaycel." Napailing naman ako.

"Steak with rice, mashed potato and salad. Pakidagdag na rin ng pasta yung kanya." Umalis naman na yung waiter that made us left with defeaning silence. I really don't know how to start a conversation. What should I tell to her?

"How are you?"

"Kamusta ka na?"

Napangiti naman ako.

"I'm fine, I just took up my Forestry masteral and last semester ko na. Everything is fine, still working with forest."

"Such a halaman." Napangiti naman ako.

"Halaman Wannabe e, how 'bout you?"

"Have a stable job na related sa laboratory but still want to be caretaker of a Panda or Monkeys.'

"Then you should follow your dream, kamukha mo naman e."

"Ang panda?"

"Yung unggoy." Nakangisi kong sambit.

"Gago." You hissed, mahina naman akong tumawa. Lumalaki naman yung butas ng ilong niya cause she's trying to suppress her laugh. Tangina nito, ganda pa rin lol

Our food came and we silently savoring it, I'm still fcked up to start a conversation with you.

"You're full na?" Tanong ko, tumango ka naman kaya kinuha ko yung mga natira mong pagkain, ayaw ko kasing nagsasayang.

"Just like the old times, hindi ka rin nananaba kahit napakatakaw mo." You commented, I shrugged my shoulder saka nilunok yung huling piraso ng lettuce.

"Thank you, I'm glad na pumayag kang makipagkita sa akin."

"Of course, it's been a long time since we met and I'm happy that you contacted me again."

"Really?" Taka kong tanong, trying to avoid the contact kasi I don't want you to see any emotion in my eyes.

"Of course, you're my friend. My batchmate." Tipid akong ngumiti.

"Yeah, friend." Once again a long silence broke us, no one tried to speak. Tanging paghinga natin at ang ingay ng paligid ang namamayani.

"What happened to us." I broke it, I almost gasped as I felt na naubusan ako ng oxygen. Nakakapanghina yung iilang salita na iyon.

"Jaycel."

"I know na alam mo kung bakit kita kinontak ulit, Yumi."

"Yeah pero..." You protested. Sht, dapat ba ay in-stalk kita to know if may you're already in a relationship? Damn. Random decisions ko. Geez!

"Don't worry, I just want a closure. A closure na dapat matagal ko nang hiningi mula sayo at hindi na ipinaabot pa ng ilang taon. A closure that will make my night peaceful and stop me from overthinking, from regretting." Nanahimik ka naman, Oh god I hate this silence. Alam ko naman na ayaw niya ng drama and here I am starting this fcking closure thing.

"So, what happened to us?" I asked again, nakatingin ka lang sa akin, I shrugged my shoulder.

"I'm just asking, Yumi. You don't need to tell something long naman." More of pamimilit ko. Inirapan mo naman ako.

"Jaycel..."

"What? Just tell me what happened to us, a years ago. Madali lang naman iyon diba? Tell me why did we br-"

"Sht happened, Jaycel. I already told you everything the moment we broke up. Hindi pa rin ba nagsi-sink in sayo iyon? Napakatagal na noon."

"Yes, pero kasi hindi malinaw sa akin." Mahina kang tumawa. I mean tangina, ang dami kong tanong na gustong gusto ko nang masagot para matapos na 'tong mga iniisip ko. After we broke up hindi na kami nag-usap, we are on the same area pero we're treating each other as an air.

"Are you still waiting for me after this goddamn years? Umaasa ka pa rin ba?" Nanahimik naman ako sa tanong mong iyon. Ay putangina, tanong ko rin yan sa sarili ko. I gripped hard on the table cloth.

"I thought ako ang kasiyahan mo." halos pabulong kong banggit sa kanya.

"Akala ko rin" sagot nito saka tumingin sa akin.

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