double date (short story) s.m.

FIVE

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I slowly opened my eyes as I felt a hand reaching out for my waist, caressing it softly over the shirt I was wearing.

"Good morning, darling." Shawn whispered, just before pressing his lips on mine for a brief second. "You slept well?"

"Kinda." I chuckled, getting a little closer to his body that was wrapped around the blanket we were both sharing. "This headache is literally killing me, though."

"Same here." He mumbled, closing his eyes again. "I didn't think I would have a hangover after all of these years, you know. I don't even remember how much I drank."

"Yeah, you look a little sore. Probably from the last night as well." A chuckle left my mouth as his hands quickly turned me around, my back now facing his front side.

"Probably..." He muttered while laughing, placing a soft kiss on my shoulder once he pulled me close again. "Do you know how beautiful you look while sleeping? Your messy hair falling on your face, lips slightly parted..."

"Oh, someone's getting creepy, huh?" I giggled, feeling his kisses falling onto my neck a second later.

"You call this creepy?"

"Uh-huh." My eyes rolled back as he started sucking instead of kissing, making me weak on my knees once again. "Shawn..."

"You know, I actually started thinking we maybe shou-" Shawn at that moment got cut off by my phone vibrating on the nightstand next to me, as I slowly got up and checked the caller ID.

"Shit!"

"Who's that?" He asked sitting up straight, confusion covering his features while his brows were making their way upwards.

"Connor." I mumbled, placing my hand on my forehead as I started pacing up and down in his big bedroom. "What am I going to say to him now?"

How can you cover the fact that you cheated on your boyfriend, without your voice shaking, not bursting out into tears, being all strong? When he already knows that you took the first step in a bar yesterday, to go to one of his best friend's condo with him, holding hands.

You can't.

My hands started shaking once the truth hit me like a truck, as I woke up from my beautiful dream to this shitty world again.

I cheated.

"Lu-"

"Shut. Up." I spoke up, raising my hand and turning my back to him, not even caring enough about the tears that was starting to form in my eyes, this weird feeling in my stomach.

I literally cheated.

I became the person I tried to escape from for months now.

A cheater.

"How could I do this? How could I fucking cheat on my boyfriend?!" I yelled as my hands went to my hair, pulling at it harshly. "How-"

"Lucy." I didn't even notice that Shawn stood up until his hands held mine in his. "Calm down. You're hurting yourself."

"Calm down?! Are you kidding me? Why the fuck aren't you feeling like a bitch because you cheated on your girlfriend as well, huh? Is this because of your arrogant personality? You don't even care about breaking the hearts that love you? You are-" I cut myself off, taking a deep breath in order to stay calm as much as I could, even though I knew it wasn't going to work anyways. "You suck, Shawn Mendes! You hear me?! Let me repeat it, to make sure that you fucking heard me right!" I yelled pulling my hands out of his, to use them against pushing him on the chest. "You. Suck."