double date (short story) s.m.

TWO

"What are you doing here?" I asked Shawn who was looking at me like he could faint any second now. Why would he come to the restrooms after me?

"I just- I wanted to talk to you." He answered looking down at his feet.

"In the restrooms? We could talk when I came back." I whisper-yelled as anxiety took all over me. I suddenly started feeling so afraid that someone out of the door could hear us talking.

"No, we couldn't." He said looking up at me again. I gave him a confused look as I couldn't understand what he was talking about.

"Don't tell me you're not feeling it." He said taking a step forward, making me frown in confusion.

"Feeling what?" I asked as he kept on coming closer.

"This." He said touching my hand to intertwine our fingers, causing goosebumps to appear all over my skin, which was something I couldn't dare neither to say or show.

"I'm not feeling anything." I mumbled looking down, trying to get out of his grip. But he was so strong that I couldn't even move my hand a little.

"Why are you lying?" He asked putting his other hand's thumb under my chin with the intention of forcing me to look into his eyes, then getting his face even closer to mine so that I could feel his hot breath on my face.

Intensely.

"I'm not lying, Shawn. I'm going to get out now, if you let me." I said not breaking the eye contact even for one second.

I let go of his hand in the brief moment he got distracted and walked over to the door, but he locked it before I could even reach there.

"What the hell, Shawn! What's your fucking problem? Let me go." I said turning around to look at him in the eyes, but they were already so busy analyzing my lips.

I felt a hint of panic rising in me at that very moment, letting out a sigh to calm down a little.

He wouldn't do anything without my willing, right? No, he definitely wouldn't. He is Shawn.

He started taking steps forward again, making me go backwards till my back faced the wall. He wasn't uttering a word, which was pissing me off more than I could imagine.

"What are you doing?" I asked scared as he started leaning in slowly. But he didn't even attempt to answer my question. He looked like he was under a spell or something, like he wasn't in his senses.

I put my hand on his chest to push him but he trapped it there, making my eyes go big.

Was he really going to do this? I didn't want it, I was feeling something towards him, it was right, but I just couldn't do this. Not when he was dating Camila, just like me and Connor being together for over a year now. Even though a big part of our relationship was based on my lies, my lies that were leaving my mouth while I was saying 'I love you.' to Connor, I still couldn't break his tiny heart that loved me more than anything. I loved him so much as well, though. He was so funny and enjoyable to spend time with, yet extremely protective. But the fact that I caught feelings the day I met Shawn was just undeniable. Even after he made me meet Connor for the first time after a few days the day I layed my eyes on him. This thing I was feeling towards Shawn was making me go crazy, I have been trying so hard to bury my feelings deep inside me that I wouldn't feel them ever again. But I already knew.

I already knew it wouldn't work.

"Shawn, I wanna get out." I whined turning my head to the right side, my voice trembling with fear.