Stray Kids One-Shots (BxB, BxG)

Misconceptions & Old Scars (ChanJiLix)

Pairing: Top Chan | Top (with Felix)/Bottom (with Chan) Jisung | Bottom Felix

Genre: Fluff & Angst

Scenario: Felix is a Little, and like his best friend Minho, he too has body modifications (facial piercings and tattoos). He also has two amazing and loving boyfriends, one of which is his adoptive brother Chan. However, Felix has faced a lot of traumatic events in the past...

Warnings: mentions of self harm, attempted suicide and PTSD

(This is a companion One Shot to The Outcast Lovers, but it's not exactly a sequel either, so you don't have to read TOL in order to read this one. Also, i don't fully know what PTSD is like for some people, but I've heard that loud noises like banging sounds and yelling and stuff can be triggering so....yeah. I don't mean to offend anyone, so it probably won't be brought up very much)

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Lee Felix is a comforting ray of sunshine on the darkest of days. Whenever Jisung would come home from a tiring day at University, there was Felix being his giggly, funny self, and whenever Chan would come home from a long, hard day at work, Felix would be there running him a bath and offering him a massage.

However, even Felix needs his relaxing days, which he does when he's in Little Space. He'll colour in, he'll draw or he'll just sit in his 'cuddle corner' and quite literally bury himself under all his plushies and just hide there. The first time he did that, Chan and Jisung had tried to find him and ended up waking poor little Felix up which led to them finding him because of how loud he was. That was the first and last time they tried to seek him out when he was hiding there.

There was also the fact that one time, they had went to a gathering of Littles in the nearby park. The other Littles had called Felix a fake because if all the tattoos and the piercings, but they soon found that Felix wasn't the only Little their with body modifications. Another Little there had a split tongue and his eyes were tattooed. His name was Yoongi, and Felix still keeps in contact with him to this day. It was a common misconception that Littles either didn't or weren't allowed to get tattoos, piercings or other body modifications, which was completely untrue and pissed Felix off a lot.

However, Felix tried his very best not to slip into Little Space when he was out in public, but then again, he also had PTSD so going out in public was sometimes a Hell on earth for him. Chan, Jisung and Felix honestly tried to go out where there wasn't many people, but there was always just too much noise for little Felix so they rarely went out unless they were around other people who could handle his PTSD well.

Chan hadn't met Minho straight away, mainly because Minho was intimidating and scary as fuck with all the body mods he had, and Chan wasn't exactly the biggest fan of body modifications, but he'd heard a few things about Minho and decided he wanted to meet him.

Flashback

"MinMin!" Felix shouted as they arrived outside the cafe where they had agreed to meet Minho.

"Hey Lixie!" Minho grinned, waving.

Chan sighed heavily, practically cringing at the amount of tattoos and piercings Minho had. However, he was going to look past all that and instead see how Minho is around Felix.

It was quite loud in the Cafe that day, so everyone was a bit wary. Minho then glanced around, and when he figured that no one was watching, he grabbed a couple of things out of his small bag that he brought with him.

"Oh my God, my stuffie and ear plugs! I've been looking everywhere for those!" Felix exclaimed, taking the items from Minho.

The ear plugs were to help with the noise, and the stuffie was more of a comfort item. The stuffie was a squirrel that he named Hannie because Jisung won it for him.

Chan was a little taken aback, because he hadn't realised that Minho knew about Felix's PTSD (which was a little dumb on Chan's part considering Minho and Felix had been friends for years).

When they actually went and sat down in the cafe, instead of sitting between Jisung and Chan, Felix went and sat next to Minho, snuggling into the older's side as he attempted to sort of hide himself. Minho didn't seem to mind, meaning that Felix has done something like that before.

"Out of all of our friends, he's only done that with you" Jisung huffed, "I'm a little jealous, but whatever"

"Wait, he doesn't do this with you or Chan?" Minho blinked.

"No, he doesn't. The most he does is hold our hands or arms and pull us to him" Chan said, "he doesn't snuggle up to us unless we're at home and he's sleepy"

"Well...I must be special then" Minho chuckled, "but don't worry; it doesn't mean he doesn't love you. It's just that...." Minho trails off.

"You don't have to talk about it, chill" Jisung smirked, "I know why he's so close with you"

"I don't and I would like to know" Chan pouted.

"Don't be a pouty baby Channie" Felix giggled, "it's because when I was going through my abusive stuff, Minho was the only one who helped me through it and the one who forced me to go to therapy, and also the main inspiration for my tattoos and piercings" Felix smiled.

Felix had taken his earbuds out though, and he winced at the noise and chatter going on around him.

"Lix, put your earbuds back in" Chan frowned.

"B-but I wanna talk to you-eep" Felix snuggled further against Minho, wanting to hide in a hole.

He had slipped into Little Space right then and there, with no warning whatsoever. Loud noises were a massive trigger for his PTSD, and in turn, his PTSD was a negative trigger for his Little Space.

"He's slipped, just leave him be" Minho sighed.

Both Jisung and Chan knew what Minho meant by that, and they had left Felix alone after that.

Flashback end!

After that event however, it seems like Felix's mental health took a turn for the worst. About a couple weeks later, Felix tried to commit suicide by drowning himself in the bathtub. Luckily, Jisung had felt something was off about Felix, and immediately went to check in his little boyfriend when it suddenly went quiet in the bathroom. That was the worst time in the trios lives. Chan remembers thinking Felix was going to die, and cried himself to sleep numerous times when he actually did manage to sleep.

But, Felix came out of it an entirely new person. After many apologies to his boyfriends, Felix started going to group therapy sessions, and is still slowly getting better. His old scars will still remain of course, but at least he was taking the effort to get better...

Okay, that ended a little weirdly, sorry about that, but I just really wanted to just get this one shot done with lol