Stray Kids One-Shots (BxB, BxG)

Stronger (ChanSung)

Pairing: Chan x Jisung
Genre: Angst, Romance, Hurt & Comfort
Warnings: Mentions of suicidal thoughts and self harm

Chan was the living embodiment of the fucking sun next to his best friend Felix and his lover Jisung. Happy, bouncy, like a fluffy, crazy, big puppy. However, all of that came to a screeching halt the night of the accident. They were out celebrating Chan's 21st birthday, and Felix had offered to take Chan home even though the two of them were giggly, silly, reckless drunks. Felix wasn't even legal, but that was the magic of fake ID's and a deep ass voice.

The loud squeal of car tyres and the equally as loud smashing sound would forever ring in Chan's ears along with the words of a kind nurse telling him he would most likely never walk again and be confined to a wheelchair for the rest of his life, his friends surrounding him. Chan broke down after the nurse left; a state that only Jisung had seen a small handful of times.

"I'm totally fucking useless now!" Chan cried in anguish.

"Hey, hey, babe, no, you're not useless" Jisung wrapped his arms around Chan in a hug.

Chan had cried for hours after that, Jisung sticking by him every second. Chan sobbed and sobbed until everything hurt.

The first day Chan got acquainted with the wheelchair, he expressed no like nor dislike towards it. He was completely expressionless, except for his eyes. No matter how expressionless or numb you may feel, it's always the eyes that give away what you try to hide. If you looked close enough, or maybe if you knew him well enough as Jisung did, you could see the insurmountable pain Chan was feeling. His heart hurt, his dreams shattered.

Himself, Jisung and Changbin were on their way to becoming a well known rap group, having already been signed to JYP Entertainment and had debuted March 25th with their first album. However, now that Chan was a paraplegic, he couldn't do the things he wanted to on stage.

Was this where 3RACHA ended?

"It's all my fault...this is all my fault" Chan choked out as he looked up at Jisung with the saddest expression the younger had ever seen, "I'm sorry"

Jisung felt his heart lurch painfully in his chest, and he too felt like crying. Jisung bit his lip, swallowing the lump in his throat.

"It's not your fault Channie hyung" Jisung whispered with a comforting smile, "so you have nothing to be sorry for"

Chan bowed his head, still feeling like he was to blame for all of this. They were in the JYP practice room along with Changbin whom had a sympathetic look on his face. When a figure entered the room suddenly, they expected it to be JYP, but it wasn't.

It was BamBam, followed closely by Yugyeom of GOT7 and, oddly, Jungkook of BTS.

"Holy fuck, thank fuck you're alive!" BamBam exclaimed, rushing over and proceeded to basically collapse onto his knees beside the wheelchair and hugged Chan tightly, "I'm sorry Yugy and I couldn't come to see you; JYP PD-nim wouldn't allow us to see you in the hospital" BamBam nuzzled into his side.

Yugyeom went into the same position on the other side of Chan, resting his head on Chan's lap. Chan felt happiness swell in his chest; happy that his two closest friends cared enough to worry, but that happiness was soon crushed.

Useless

Weak

Amounted to nothing

It's all your fault

You should just die

No one would care

This downward spiral lasted for months. Chan barely ate, rarely talked to anyone except Jisung, and was constantly locking himself in his and Jisung's shared room, refusing to go our anywhere. In this broken state, he resorted to something he regretted every day since he stopped.