After August hung up, it got me thinking. Am I being too hard on him? He is trying. I mean, he even had someone hand deliver flowers to me in school infront of everyone.
No, he can't buy me. I'm too fucking expensive for that. He needs to feel me. He left me ass out. All by myself. All those times I cried. All those times I tore myself down because of him. He left me to suffer. He left me ass out. He deserves what I'm giving him. Right?
I sighed and fell back on my bed. He's probably right. He is supposed to check up on me and care for me. Daniel doesn't do that for me. Maybe I'm making the right decision by giving August a chance. Just maybe.
"Chilombo?" A voice said.
I sat up to see Karrueche standing there shyly. I bit my lip. Her face had scars, but it was covered by make up. I couldn't help but feel bad for her. She didn't deserve it. She walked over and sat down on my bed.
We sat there for a while in silence. A long, uncomfortable ass silence. She cleared her throat and spoke.
"Look, I'm sorry. I should've never said those things to you. They were out of line and it wasn't my place." She spoke, softly.
"Apology accepted." I say.
She smiled and pulled me into a hug. Now this is the Karrueche I know and like much better. We pulled away and we smiled.
"That japenese must've came out or something, because your little butt kicked my ass." She laughed.
"I'm sorry about that." I laugh a little.
"It's ok. You didn't hurt my baby." She says.
I froze. Did this bitch.....this bitch just did. I stared at her for a real long time. So that's why she wants Chris to move with her to Cali. That trick is pregnant. I put on a fake smile.
"Congrats." I say.
She smiled and rubbed her stomach all happy and shit like she there is actually a fucking bump there. Damn, I wonder how Chris is going to take this.
Kae and I talk for a few more minutes and she leaves. I just wave it away. Having a baby by him will not make hin stay, but that's none of my buisness.
Anyways, I picked up my phone and decided to call August back. I know he's gonna be in his feelings, but it's worth the try.
"Hello?" I say.
"Wassup?" He says, blandly.
I bite my lip and speak.
"I was thinking about what you said, and I'm sorry for being all mean and shit. I just....I don't want you to hurt me again. I'm scared. But I see that you care. I wanted to tell you this, but you went all mother geese on me."
"It's Mother Goose."
"It's muthafucka shut the hell up!" I snap.
August laughs. That laugh. It just makes me weak in the knees.
"Aight, I forgive you. But you gotta stop treatin' me like shit, Bo. That shit ain't coo and I'ont wanna end up hurtin' you over some shit you said. Aight?"
"Aight. I promise I'll stop."
"Aight coo, I love you, baby."
"I love you too."
