Hunter x hunter : another reason why Ging left gon..

Ten years later...

It's been ten years now since I gave gon to Mito...I wonder how they are doing now? I thought as I continued with what I was doing, with every job I do, more people seem to end up owing me something like a favor of some sort...the Zoldyck can't touch me, the phantom troupe can't touch me, a lot of people can't because they all owe me favors, which has surprised me because it's not like I do it on purpose but I always seem to accidentally help out people unknowingly.

Then I only find out when we meet in person, sigh it's just my weird luck acting out again. I've always had weird luck, but most of the time it's in my favor, there has only been a few times it was not in my favor but another factor appears, like a few people who owe me appear all of a sudden and help me out.

I wonder if gon inherited my weird luck as well? If so..well I'll find out sooner or later if he did...especially if he takes the hunter exam...

I wonder what he will do though? He might want to meet me or not, it all depends on him. I don't know exactly if he will become a hunter or not but it's all going to be gon's choice, no one else can decide for him. I frown, lost in thought, I would have visited gon but.. there were a few reasons why I haven't...

One is that i'm very busy with my work, another is that.. I'm not exactly sure if he's still the same when he was little, like when he didn't let me out of his sight and all that stuff.

I kinda do hope he's gotten better with that and will allow me out of his sight but that might not happen but I can only hope that he at least changed a little bit for the better...I let out a sigh, what am I going to do with you gon?

Even though I haven't seen you in ten years..I still worry about you kid..you are my son after all...and parents worry for the kids all the time..I think...I don't meet a whole lot of people who actual raise their kids in a sable environment..and some people I meet..aren't exactly sable themselves..hehe I guess I should probably get new friends but I'm satisfied with who I am and who I'm friends with exactly.

Besides that..a lot of people are a good kind of crazy sort of people...though I wonder what sort of friends gon will make? Will they be like my friends? Or even more crazier or not too crazy at all? Oh well I'll find out if gon becomes a hunter and if he's that determined to even meet me.

If he doesn't want to meet me then we will never ever meet in this life, I'll make sure of it and if he wants to meet me..then I'll make it hard for him to find me..I wonder if he remembers me or not, I hope not because if he has remembered me then I don't think he would change that much like I would have wanted him to.

Because like I said, gon's personality when he was with me..he almost did get hurt but I have quick reflexes but if he continues to stay with me.. one day he will end up getting hurt... I didn't want that, so I left him with Mito. It is safe on that island, i know that because i grew up there.

I'm am a selfish person, i know that but all hunters are selfish. We leave people behind, but i kinda have a feeling that someone, someday will change that. I don't know when or who, i just got that feeling that it will happen one of these days and when it does, people will go back and meet those they left behind and all that stuff. I prefer not to visit them because while a lot of people can't even harm me, let alone touch me, that does not men it is the same way for my family.

Like i said, i love my family, i would like to visit maybe twice a month but i practically stopped any visits that i used to make when i gave gon to mito. I let out a sigh as i realized where i let my  thoughts take me. I wonder...how have they been doing lately? I do miss them but they are also targets to get at me, as long as most people don't know who i am related to, then they will be fine.

But if i where to visit to much, people might begin to suspect something and dig deeper into my past.

Which i don't want, so i will have to stay away, my family may never forgive me for this as we only live once, and they may never see me again in this life...But i don't regret it. For me doing that, means they can stay safe just a little bit longer. I want them to be able to die of old age and not be killed or harmed or even be used against me. I don't want them to go through that, that is my reason, for being selfish for staying away from them for so long. I may hope they can forgive but that is alright that they never will forgive me, i just hope on the day that i were to die, that i can see them them in person one last time because i may have pictures of them but it isn't as great as the actual person.

So i will continue being selfish until the day i know that they will truly be safe from any enemy i might have made in my life, then i can finally visit them without anyone trying to find information about my past and who i am related to. That day may never come for me, but it will one day and many people will be grateful on that day. So until then, i will continue to live my own life as a very selfish person...i thought as i went to my current room that I was staying for the night and went to bed.

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