mellifluous

sleeping with the lights on

total darkness used to be good for me

a place of peace

swallowing me up like a warm blanket from my childhood

i gave away long ago

smelling of happiness

and keeping me warm

on the coldest nights of the year

but that was before you

and the scissors you took to my blanket

and the wounds you cut into my skin

when the low light

kept me from seeing

just how far into me you were cutting

as every word out of your mouth

was a reassurance that this would stop hurting

that my wounds would heal by morning

and i held out hope they would

even when i knew your every word was a lie.

now i can't sit in the dark

without staring at my clock

wondering how much longer i have of my freedom

before you and your freshly sharpened knife

come to cut into me

until i have to tell those who love me

rather than simply claim to love me

why i'm sleeping with the lights on.

a/n: this one's about toxic friendship, which is kinda fun i guess. i mean it's not fun to go through, but it was fun to write. got a lot of emotions off my chest. if you liked this, please drop a vote and a comment or promote this to your friends! i love you all!

-xoxo, winter