mellifluous

the day you fell out of love

i knew from the moment i greeted you that

morning that things had changed. you walked

by my classroom, eyes cast down, slumped like you had something to be

ashamed of. i chased after you like a lovesick child, and when

i said hello, your eyes, which were formerly

fixed on me like i was the only girl you'd ever seen, were

fixed on the door. waiting. watching. wishing for

someone else. and i

should've expected this when you barely

spoke to me all day, eyes always searching,

searching for something, for someone that

wasn't me. so maybe

i'm the fool for letting my heart fill with hope when you

asked me to come over, painting my face with makeup and

putting on my best clothes, singing love songs in the car

as i drove, expecting to watch a movie in your arms instead of

seeing you standing there on the porch with tears in your

distant eyes, for once that day focused on

me. and you ran a finger down my cheek, empty apologies

dripping from your lips in the spaces between

"there's someone else" and "i know this isn't fair" and

"it has nothing to do with you" even though i knew it had

everything to do with me. and i know you never said this, you could

never be this cruel, but all i heard was

"i don't love you and

i never have." 

A/N: this one is pretty personal. i've never been in a relationship, but given that things are generally falling apart right now, this one really hurt to write. i hope you guys like it. xoxo, winter.