Sibling Serye

52.

"Kyle, what happened to us??"

"Iuuwi na kita tapos bukas tayo mag-usap."

"Bakit hindi ba natin sinubukan?"

"Patch, stop."

"Please?"

If she didn't asked him those questions during their drive home, Kyle wouldn't be seating across her here in their favorite coffee shop. Patch know she's not as drunk as she is awhile ago, maybe because she's on her third cup of coffee already or maybe it's because of the memories this exact place hold. Patch can still vividly remember how their gigs would end up with having coffee at this place, talking about their dreams, of how close they are in achieving those. This moment right here seems to resemble that except the fact that their paths separated a long time ago already and this place no longer holds the dream they build together.

"Alam mo bang last day of operation na nito today? They're going to tear down the place tomorrow." she tried to start the conversation. "They're moving to the highlands sabi kasi nung may-ari she no longer feels they belong here. Ang ironic noh? She used to tell us na sobrang perfect nung spot, that she can't imagine having it elsewhere but here she is now saying it doesn't feel home at all."

Kyle smiled, "baka naman kasi hindi talaga home simula pa lang. She just feels safe here kasi ito na yung nakasanayan niya tsaka dati wala namang kakompitensya but when her surroundings started to change, nung nag-iiba na yung pinupuntahan ng mga tao na-realize niya na hindi pala talaga cause if this is home in the first place kahit ano pang magbago she wouldn't feel like she don't belong. May ganoon kasi talaga kala mo pangmatagalan yun pala dadaan lang."

Patch forced a smile, "dapat sinubukan niya muna."

"Mukha naman sinubukan niya kaso iba na yung hanap nung mga tao. Hindi naman pwedeng maghintay lang siya bumalik sila, paano kung hindi na sila bumalik? Ang laging lugi nun. The owner knows that she needs to create a new and better identity for her shop since she already lost hers when they found theirs."

Patch swallowed the lump forming on her throat, "have you found yours?"

The mere thought of Kristina makes him feel giddy and she can see it, "yes and I found my home too."

"So, kayo na?"

"Hindi pa kami." somehow there's a sense of relief, "...but we're getting there. We don't plan on having a no label relationship. Magulo yun e."

That hits home, "yeah. Magulo talaga yun. We've been there."

"Exactly. I've learned my lessons and I'm pretty sure you do too." he said with a soft smile. "Haven't heard about Uno lately. What's up?"

She heaved out a deep sigh, "magulo."

"Why?"

Her eyes are starting to water, "we can't set aside our differences that I didn't know we have until lately when things started to be on the rocks. When we started dating we're always on the same page, gets niya ko, gets ko siya. I've never been that happy but now, I can't pinpoint what's wrong. Nagkamali nga talaga ata ako nung iniwan kita and I'm reaping the consequences of that action."

Kyle chuckled, "it's not about that. Hindi mo nararanasan yan kasi iniwan mo ko. That's not how it works, Patch. You should know that."

"But, I don't have to deal with this if I didn't—"

"You did." Kyle interrupted, "you left. We're a done deal already. Stop revisiting the us that didn't happened if it wouldn't help you better yourself because it's pointless."

"But Kyle, what if—"

"Let go. Thinking of the what ifs won't fix your problem. Tapos na yun e. Tapos na yung ikaw at ako. Wala na yung tayo. Matagal na and you made it pretty clear when you dated Uno." he stated firmly, "sabi mo you are at your happiest when you're with him, that he values you more than anything else. Sabi mo sa kanya mo lang naramdaman yung freedom tapos ngayon you want to leave? Bakit? Kasi hindi mo na maiintindihan? You told me you love him kaya sana naman wag mong sayangin yung tinaya mo nung pinili mo siya dahil lang sa nahihirapan ka na. Please stop looking for an exit, instead look for an answer. You made your choice. Wag mo namang takasan ulit. Tama na. Hindi ka ba napapagod?" those words left a bitter taste on his mouth but, he was glad he finally said it.

Patch can't no longer hold it, she let her tears fall once again, "I'm tired that's why I want you back. Things are better with you."

"No, Patch. It's not. You're just confused." Kyle stated, "You're just used to running back to me but you no longer love me. Nasasayangan ka lang, alam ko kasi pinagdaanan ko. Mahal mo si Uno alam natin yun pareho and I want you to know that I love Kristina as much, maybe even more. Ito na tayo ngayon, Patch. This is our reality."

"I'm so sorry. I messed up." she cried.

"You don't owe me a sorry. You owe that to Uno and to yourself."

"Kyle." she called and you can see fear in her eyes.

"It's okay, Patch. You'll be okay." he assured, "I'll always be your friend."

Patch smiled, it's not forced, it's more of a smile of realization that she needs to completely move on and just be thankful of what she have right now.

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Sibling Serye by ceeayech
05 November 2016 | 16 June 2019 (revamp)

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