A girl future is fixed even before her birth with a boy of 9 years old in marriage proposal , but due to unexpected death of her parents, everything is changed. Then the marriage proposal is broken from boy's side because that girl is orphan left w...
What am I supposed to do? And, What am I doing here? Just few minutes back, I felt like everything is crystal clear infront of my eyes. I made a important decision of my life with in fraction of a second, believing my Heart. I valued my feelings than my principles. But now I doubt, what if She doesn't reciprocate the same feelings for me? What if She don't want me as I want her? What if my presence doesn't matter to her as she matters to me? I can't even handle these thought, then how can I handle something in real?
Screaming in my mind at myself, I punched the wall infront of me for numerous times. But this 'What if' questions are not leaving my mind for single instance. I am happy for choosing my heart than my mind, but at the same time, I am feeling weak, devastated and spoiled. I never faced such a vulnerable situation before. The situation, where I know what I want, the girl I want is here infront of me, but I cant say it out loud to her. I kneeled on the floor covering my face with my palms.
I was never attracted by a girl before, Like I was attracted to her. I never wish to have a girl beside me, Like I wish to have her by my side. This feelings erased all my thoughts of Anika from my brain. All the wait I have done to have Anika by my side is vanished. This feelings are new but very very strong that I can't resist. The strength of these feelings made me to totally forget about Anika, who is present before me. The magnetic pull of these feelings landed me here, being weak and vulnerable man for the Girl, I LOVE... Shaking of the weakness I stood from floor and decided to take next step. I may look like foolish to her, but I need to express my feeling to her as soon as possible. Or else my mind will burst out with numerous questions.
Coming out of my room, I saw Khanna sitting in a chair near dining area lost in his thoughts. I am in no mood to disturb his thoughts. I felt stressed myself. Moving to the window I came face-to-face with the heavy rainfall. Nothing is seen clearly. There is no light source from outside, except the light emitting from thunders. I can see the drops of water that are falling on the glass window from the dull light of main hall. The city seem darker and darker. There are no glowing street lights and no lights from vehicles on the road. I can see the outline of trees, waving to and fro according to the wind direction. The window glass is shaking due to high winds making noise. But this is nothing compared to the noise of Storm coming from outside the window. But surprisingly, that hollow noise is soothing my havoc of mind.
I stood in the same spot staring outside the window, for how long I don't know.The rain fall is reduced to some extent and first ray of sunrise is going to hit the city.
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I looked at my watch to find its 05:50 AM. I stood here all the night? May be, crossing my thoughts, I looked outside to find,the vehicles are moving slowly one after one. Sighing heavily, when I turned back, Khanna is standing there giving me worry looks. I shook my head and moved towards my room, saying : Stop looking at me and call the pilot. We will leave to Mumbai as soon as possible to drop them at their home.
