The wind continued to bellow and roar loudly upon Sawada Tsunayoshi's ears as he watch the raging waves beneath the cliff.
Looking farther down the jagged rocks, Tsuna saw the vast and deadly waves of the sea. Its face like a hungry black beast that could swallow anything whole.
A wry and painful smile crossed upon the boy's face as he stared upon the deep, deep dark.
'It looks so dark, so cold, and yet it felt so welcoming.' Tsuna thought to himself with closed eyes as he inhaled the fresh tang of the familiar sea.
It was already 6 PM and the sun had long been gone beyond the horizon. Stars littered the night sky as the surroundings got clouded by the same quilt of darkness. The towering trees behind the brunet continuously swished its leaves that gave an eerie feel to those who were alone and weak at heart.
Yet, despite all the darkness and coldness of the night, Tsuna felt relaxed and at ease.
Instead of feeling scared, he felt at home in the middle of the deep, deep black rather than be exposed in the wide and open bright sky of the day.
Quiet... Everything is finally quiet.
Tsuna's hurt thumped with an aching longing of the unknown as he opened his hazy sunset orbs. His eyes were often viewed as peculiar. Something full of mystery which is the same air that hovered around him.
His mother even often told him that he was... special.
But was he really special? He doesn't think so.
Tsuna's eyes is truthfully considered to be beautifully mesmerizing among all the eye colors that existed, yet beyond such dance of colors, it didn't hold any light.
His eyes were dead like the cold, cold night. It vibrance too dark and dull to exude any warmth.
Tsuna released a shaky breath as he stepped forward to the edge of the cliff. Each step getting heavier than the last.
Each step he took had him crying.
For the first time in the short and excruciating 15 years of his life, he felt the despair, fear, anger, and sadness that wraps around his small frame.
For the first time in his 15 years of living, he wailed like a lost child as he dropped to his knees, close to taking the last step before he plunge himself to the cold, cold sea.
Tsuna shivered as he embraced his fallen form as tears began to fall from his tender face.
"W-Why!? Why can't I do it!? I-I thought I've been strong enough! I thought I've made up my mind! But why can't I do it!? Why can't I just disappear from this life!? Why can't you just take me, you bastard!? Why can't you just kill me already!?" Tsuna roared along with the sudden flash of lighting and the deafening boom of the thunder.
The calm night sky was suddenly covered in blazing storms as the rain poured down as if to cover his tears and scream. It was as if the elements were comforting him as he wallow in his despair.
And so, he cried over everything.
He cried about how he was unaccepted. He cried about his fate. He cried about his misery. And most of all... his hate.
There were no words that left the brunet's lips just like how his wail for help and acceptance was left unheard by nobody else but his lone self.
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Anaesthesia (KHR)
Fanfiction"A sky that is tainted in darkness will never feel warm but cold. A sky that cannot feel could never fully sympathize. I want to learn, want to feel. I wonder if anyone could give me such a chance." Sawada Tsunayoshi is sick. He feels sick enough th...
