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Chapter 35

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Singto POV

I decided to come to his apartment that night without prior notice. I knew he would have a lot of reasons if I said I would go to his place to discuss our relationship problems. But I can not wait any longer.

He broke up with Prae, and I'm not with Aya anymore either. Nothing else is preventing us from being together.

"P'Sing ... What the ..." he seemed surprised to see me standing in front of his condo door,

"I have something to talk about ..."

"Come in, please! Sorry I just got ho... mmph..."

Once we entered the condo, I immediately closed the door and kissed Krist's lips. It's been a few days since I last kissed him and I really miss him. Although I really wanted to kiss him longer, I realized I could not let my mind be distracted.

"Sorry if I bothered you..." I said while stroking the side of his face and giving him a kiss on his lips, before I retreated and let go of his body,

"No... I was just surprised, because you suddenly came without a message. I just got home!" he said with a blushing face,

"I know..."

"Do you want something? Coffee?"

"Coffee will be awesome!"

"Wait a minute!"

I saw that he was still wearing the clothes he used when leaving the location today. His hair was disheveled and his face looked rather tired. After finishing making coffee for me and hot tea for him, he also took the cups to the dining room, where I was waiting for him.

"You know why I came here, right?" I asked,

"More or less…"

"Sorry but I can't wait any longer..." I said while playing the coffee cup between my hand,

"Actually, I want to talk about this later after the film shooting is over. But I agree, we should talk about this as soon as possible. Sorry for making you wait!"

"Nong... Would you be my lover?" I asked.

Krist didn't look surprised, he still looked down at his tea cup. Almost seems like a devastated one. He avoided my gaze. I let the silence spread after my question, letting him to think of the answer he would say.

"Phi..." Krist's voice when calling me somehow brought a bad feeling to me,

"What are you thinking?" I asked while I grabbed his hand and held it softly, "I love you and I know you love me too... We both are single..."

"Phi... I know that at this time a man-to-man relationship has become a very natural thing and we often encounter it in society. But we also need to think about the effects of our relationships both for others and our work...

We have just started a career on this road. I'm afraid, this will have a bad impact going forward. For you ... Also for me. "

"I'm not asking you to make an announcement about our relationship to everyone, I know it takes time. But at the very least, I want to be able to call you mine. Don't you want to have me Kit?" I asked, looking straight on his eyes.

This man cares too much about his surroundings. I realize Krist is not a selfish person, even though I really want him to be selfish just this once. Although he repeatedly said he was afraid this might affect our careers, I realized what he was worried about was actually myself.

"Phi ... I don't have the confidence to be able to have a secret relationship!"

"Then what do you suggest? So that we split our ways after shooting the movie and the promotion period is over? I do not want…"

"If we date, one day we might break up and separate too. Nobody knows the future... " contrary to the cruel sentences, I felt the hand in my hand tremble slightly,

"Nobody knows about the future and you decide not to go through this relationship, even though you don't know yet what will happen?!"

"P'Sing... Please understand! I don't want to lose our friendship..." he said stubbornly.

I let go of his hand and I rose from my chair. I walked toward his chair. I eliminate the distance between us because of my needs of some skinship.I feel the needs to touch him, to be skin to skin, to assuring and calm myself. To be able to connect with him, the handsome man who stole my heart.

I stood in front of him with my head bowed. Krist still avoiding my gaze.

"You will still lose me in the end, if you reject me!" I said.

Krist gasped in surprised, he looked up at me with wide eyes and filled with tears, "Are you threatening me Phi?"

"I'm only telling the truth!" I said softly, stroking his soft hair gently, "Give me a chance Krist! Give us a chance!"

Krist stood up from his chair and walked to the open balcony door, leaving me alone, pensive. He stood leaning on the balcony's railing and his back facing me.

I am not ignorant of what underlies Krist's argument about our relationship. I know. But I do not want to lose him. I will fight so we can be together. And I also hope, I am important enough in his life to fight for.

"I love you Phi..." he said quietly,

"I love you too Krist..." I said convincingly,

"If we're together, I want us to be able to support each other's careers and lives. Can you promise me?! You will not let this relationship hinder our careers!" He said,

"Krist..."

"Promise Phi!"

"I don't want to promise to make you second after our careers and jobs. But I will try my best so that you are proud of me, I will always support you to achieve your dream Kit and I will try to walk with you on that road. Is this promise enough for you? "

"Yes... Enough. Thank you Phi..." he said as he turned and faced me, I saw his shoulder which looked tense now began to relax.

"Now can I ask you to come in here and close your balcony door? I can't hold you there... Because if P'Jane and P’Yui see a photo of our scandal, I might be hung by both of them." I said as I stood up and opened my hands wide.

Krist smiled with wet eyes and did exactly as I asked. He stepped in through the balcony door, closed the glass door and pulled a thick curtain over our view outside. Then turned to face me and walked slowly, entering my arms.

"Thank you for wanting to try this with me!" I said while kissing his forehead, lovingly.