More Than Friends?

Tom's Feelings

He nodded slowly with a small smile as his face turned a deeper red than mine
"So... so you, you're, you..."I stuttered and struggled to find the words, my right hand had started doing small circles trying to pull the words out the air. That was when Tom reached out and pushed my hand down and left his on top of mine. My heart beat even faster. No longer with the nervousness and anxiety that it did moments ago but with excitement. He looked me dead in the eyes as he gently rubbed my hand with his thumb.
"Yeah. I'm gay too." We stayed like that for what seemed an eternity. Not the years of painfully awkward silence that had passed before but a blissfull eternity of happy nervousness of what would come next. I pulled my hand back, which I regretted slightly but I needed to know soemthing.
"But what about Rachel?" Rachel was the girl I had mentioned before that he had admitted to having a crush on. His hand had stayed stretched across the table and had clenched slightly when I asked.
"I, uh, didnt want others to know I was gay. I've known her all my life and I came out to her about a year ago. We kinda came up with a plan where I would pretend to like her to cover up my sexual orientation. Please dont be mad." He looked at me with the most adorable puppy eyes I had ever seen. How could I not forgive him.
"No no, I'm not mad. I just uh, you know, thought you were maybe making a joke or something." He shook his head and looked down saddened. I felt bad for assuming he would joke about something like this so I put my hands back in his. He looked at our hands and then to me. We both just stared at each other until he finally broke the silence.
"Do you uh, like, well, I mean, uh, I guess what I'm trying to say is, uh, what's your type?" He looked around the room but when. He finally found his words he looked back at me with those big puppy eyes.
"Uh, well, you I guess." I broke eye contact and I felt the heat in my face intensify tenfold. Had I really just done that? I had only planned to come out tonight, not admit my feelings. But I had also planned on him being angry with me not for him to come out as well? What was going on? I had prepared for almost all scenarios I thought of how could I have been so far from the truth. When I finally looked back at him he had the same shocked, mouth open look he had when I had first told him I was gay. When he realized he hadn't said anything he he blinked and pulled away slightly. I let his hand go to try and ease the tension I had just created. But he grabbed my hand almost as quickly as he had pulled back. He leaned forward in his chair as to get more serious. I also learned closer to sort of give respect to whatever he was about to say. I couldnt bring myself to look him in the eyes. Not after what I had just said. And he was still holding my hand. Probably in some friendly Hey we're both gay but let's be friends sort of way. That's when I notice that his lips, that I had been looking at instead of his eyes, were coming closer and closer. He hadn't leaned forward to get serious, he was going in for a kiss. My eyes shot up and met his, I had never seen this look in him before. He stared at me with a lusty hunger just before he closed his eyes, tilted his head to his left and leaned across the table. I was so shocked that i almost didnt return the kiss. I rushed forwards to meet him but closed my eyes too early and misjudged the distance. I half kissed half headbutted him.
"Ow" he broke away and reached a hand up to his mouth.
"Oh my gosh, I'm so sorry, you just suprised, are you ok?" Wuestions started flowing from as I stood up and ran around the table to make sure that I hadn't just completely ruined any chance I had.
"Getting a little excited arent we?" He said with a chuckle as he pulled his hand away.
"No blood, I'm alright." My heart pounded I was so scared that I had just headbutted my closest friends and possible new love and the face after he tried to kiss me.
"Now." He grabbed my shirt and pulled me down so that I was in a half squat half bow position with my face inches from his.
"Let's try that again."