✨Perfect✨ Imperfections (altrast)

chapter 6)hugs and tears

Today I was awoken with a smooth hand carresing my hair and when I opened my eyes I saw my mom seated there with my head in her lap ,she must be deep in thought,looking at her  I realised something, not only was her goal to keep me safe but she also wanted a normal life for me,she never had one..growing up with an abusive drunkard of a father, broke her and Mr Kenny might have been there to help her pick  up the pieces but in the end he left too..sigh

"Aah u awake honey,good morning my cupcake.."
her smile overtaking her entire face completely covering up the face she had before..

"morning mum...what are you doing here?"

"I just wanted you to see you  first thing in the morning silly!..,"

"..but i see you everytime..we only two in this house mom"

i looked at her with wide eyes

Now realising her outburst she slightly let out a giggle still grinning and i knew what was coming

"How did lunch go yesterday?"

"oh it was great I answered her.."

"Really?"

"yeah it was kinda awkward at first but then.,we flowed in conversation the whole time"

"So do you consider ever living with him for a while?"

"no mom i will never leave you i just thought i would give him a chance and see where this goes and yeah thats all ,speaking of  living  with him ..,why would i do that?"

Sigh !.."oh i see he hasn't told you yet ..I thought he mentioned something to you yesterday.."

"Mom,what's going on...?" I spoke lowly than i intended to looking  at her with pleading eyes

"Honey about that I was going to tell you earlier but I figured out that you are dealing with a lot of things and that will be just too much so I was waiting for the right moment it's just that I thought your father had told you already after yesterday.."

" Mom whats going on?"

"I'm moving to London for a while baby,I got a promotion and i have been stuck here for years it's such a wonderful opportunity, it has been my dream...I don't want you to leave this place though, its your home ."

"Mom but?"

starting to feel the anger rising inside me ,I just busted into tears ..my own mom doesn't want me...

"Sweetheart ,I discussed this with your father and he didn't agree with it ,that it won't be the best thing for you to move along with  me and your studies will be affected and i also hadn't been completely honest with you...Honey don't cry.." her eyes filled with tears she reached out to me

I quickly jolted out of bed..." don't touch me!cry what do you mean you haven't been completely honest with me?"

"Tash remember I told you he had to be away from you for fifteen  years  ,then he can come back...well it's now and he is back and the other end of the deal is that he will take you and live with  you for five years then you can decide what you want and of course you can always come to see me anytime...

And being the man your father is ,he said it's unnecessary for that  even though we signed an agreement he persisted on cancelling it cause he said he doesn't want to be the reason mother and daughter separates and not that he doesn't want you or anything but now that I'm moving out of here and looking in your best interest I think that its just fate honey ...

I love you and so does he...he is a great man allow him to show that to you as well..,honey say something please..?"

" Just leave me for a while" ...using my other hand to wipe away my tears swallowing all the new information with my right hand holding my dresser for balance

My mom exited my bedroom and i was left speechless,I didn't fail to notice a tear that escaped her eye down her cheeks as she closed the door,

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The past few days were just more complicated..,in a week I will be moving out of this humble home that I've lived in    for years ,I remember  the first day we moved in this home it was autumn and my mom had gotten a raise resulting in us being able to afford to live in such a big house , I was quite sad because  I loved living with my aunt but mom said that sooner or later we had to move so that aunt can have her life  too and she was right..
Smiling  sadly to myself i went to sit on my window looking outside and my eye caught two men with dark glasses and black suits roaming around my compound,.I suddenly panicked then it hit me...I was seen in public with him ..

God knows how many enemies he has,I suddenly got up from my bed and went to open my door slightly giving my room a look over..I can't believe I won't be here anymore mom will probably sell it to some couple ..and my room could be someone's too..

I guess in life nothing is permanent, I walked out and went to the kitchen  knowing that mom will most  probably be there. .I had to talk to her I don't know what I will say but I had to talk to her after all I won't be seeing her ..,my heart sank at that thought ,

"Mom are you here?"

"Hey honey over here" ..she gestured to me from the lounge ..I quickly went to her helping her set up the table..I don't know why she always do that its just the two of us anyways my lazy self would rather just dish up and eat, all the casualties are just for when im expecting guests..,not lady like right but I just don't like doing things the hard way than to just save time and energy

"hey mom can we umm-mm talk .?"

"of course Tash but it has to wait upto after dinner..,that will do"

"okay that's fine I guess"

"Yeah cheer up I  made your favourite honey!"

"cool"
...I quickly went to hug her which she gladly returned pulling me more into her.. I'm gonna miss you mom ,I thought ,

"imma miss you too sweetheart"
..,not surprised guess I thought  out loud
Breaking the sweet moment i sat down on the chair and mom did the same and we started eating peacefully and we started talking about the past few years and some of the memories we shared resulting in mom shedding a whole lot of tears and me gulping down water  and food in my mouth to avoid doing the same..,
After dinner I helped clearing the table and placing the plates in the dish washer then we talked for a while and i told mom that im gonna be strong it was a promise i guess and she told me all the time i can come to her and maybe I will meet  someone special which she started crying again saying that she probably wont be there on my first day or my prom but then I was at peace, nomatter how much i need her with me, I didn't need to be selfish she has been putting me first all her life and i wasnt gonna hold her backany longer,

This is the least I would do for her ..the whole night ended in tears ,hugs and  kisses and we ended up watching movies snuggled next to each other just like old times...