𝐌𝐎𝐍𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝐈𝐈 | KTH ❄️

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My eyebrows raise. The fork pinched between my fingers suddenly goes cold at my touch and my body stiffens when Hoseok playfully pulls my shoulder.

"Don't listen to Kook, he's—"

"What did you just say?" I ask.

"Shhhh!" The long-haired boy hushes my lips, then sings, "DoN't TelL lilOoo..."

I know he's not lying. When Jungkook's drunk he sings and rambles, but doesn't lie.

I suddenly put down my food and storm out. A curse escapes Hoseok's breath before he's trailing after me towards the stairs.

"Lilo—!"

He only manages to pull my arm briefly until I grunt and push him down the first few steps, taking the chance to run.

It's when I open our bedroom door that I catch Taehyung fitting his head through the crewneck of a baggy tee. His eyebrows furrow at me in confusion.

"What's wro—?"

"YOU COULDN'T TELL ME YOURSELF?! What you were SNORTING?!"

The look he returns to me is of numb and shock, but as soon as Hoseok comes into view behind me, he delivers him a scowl.

"Hey it wasn't even me!"

Taehyung's sensitive look comes back into play when he sighs and reaches for my arm. "Look—"

But I pull my hand back. "Cocaine?! What is the MATTER with you?! You told me everything else so why leave this out?! Do you know how dangerous this is?!"

He just stares at me in silence, which only aggravates me more.

"Well?!"

"...I was gonna tell you once I'd fully stopped. I haven't taken it in days—"

"So?! You told me no more secrets yet it's like it's in your nature to keep them whether you mean to or not. I kept so calm with you all those times you yelled at me for no reason yet YOU were up here getting high!"

"I should go..." Hoseok excuses himself awkwardly.

"Li, at least let me explain."

"Oh, go ahead. Please do. So how long, hm?" My folded arms tighten to restrict tears from spilling, voice cracking as I muster, "How many times have you stupidly poisoned yourself?"

He stares down at my height and licks his lips before sighing.

"12 times."

"Twelve..." I practically scoff, shaking my head as I'm suddenly crying.

"I knew there was something off about you. Not only am I pissed but I'm fucking scared. I mean if you could keep something like this from me then what does that say about us? I know you've been going through a lot but I just don't understand why you'd..."

I press my wrists against each eye to block the leaking tears. "Why you'd g-go this far when you have me..."

"I know... It was stupid of me to even try it. But we're still strong Lilo. This doesn't change us."