Barely Breathing.

Chapter 3. Like a true Ghost!

I spent my time wandering the halls of the hospital. Like a true Ghost!

I loved the way, how everyone around me was unaware of my presence, how some were truly happy and how some were miserable.

It was fascinating to see joy and sadness co-existing in such a peaceful manner! It was a beautiful oxymoron.

I now knew that it was the next day, 19:27 to be precise.

From all the wandering around, I also knew that Ravi from 403 had just passed out from the overwhelming happiness and excitement of watching his daughter being born. I could still hear his wife grumbling about him being the pansy when she was the one who was going through REAL pain.

I must say, it was great entertainment.

Parveen from 619, had just passed gas for the first time post some complicated surgery on her kidney, her doctors and relatives, were overjoyed. It was almost comedic to watch her blush and get flustered, as complete strangers asked her if she had farted yet!

Maria from 102, died due to cancer. Watching her loved ones cry over her body, felt like I was invading their privacy. It felt too intimate even if I was a ghost wandering the halls.

It was Maria and her loved ones that had brought me to where I was currently situated.

Right now, as I sit cross-legged under the table where my comatose body lay, I couldn't help but feel depressed over the fact that in the past 28 hours, nobody had looked for me. That nobody had come to visit me.

Right now, it feels like I'm dying all over again. The weight of the thought that absolutely no one had the thought to check up me was disturbing me.

I had always wondered if my existence mattered to anybody besides me. If anybody would notice if I died.

But I don't know who I was looking for in such situations, it wasn't like I was married or had a serious relationship with anyone. I wasn't much of a social person, did not have that many friends too, definitely no one that I would call " Best Friend".

As for my family, I always felt like a burden to them. Like I was indebted to them for something.

You see, I was under no delusion that I was important. But to realize, that I mattered to absolutely no one, is the thing that was making me want to cry.

The feeling was there. Within me, I was sad and upset, and I wanted to let it out. To shout and cry and declare and apologize to God knows Who. but I wanted to cry. I was dry heaving and breathing deep. The sensation was there but the fact that I couldn't produce tears to physically cry was like adding salt to an already open wound.

At that moment, all I wanted was to Die.

As my train of thought, went completely rabid for what felt like an eternity, The twins decided to make an appearance, the looks on their faces though, were completely opposite.

While Aiden had an expression that looked like pure and utter rage, Myrah looked a little more content ( I think?)

It's not like I had anything left to lose. " What happened? What's to happen to me now? When does this end?" Oh, how I wanted it to end!

"Zarina! We're going to be best friends!" Myrah exclaimed.

Uh, I don't think so. That's quite impossible, I thought.

"Let's cut the crap, shall we? Look Zarina, when we left yesterday, we actually went to see Fink, the guy who assorts cases and assigns them. When we went to him, He explained to us that he wasn't aware of your case. According to his manual, You were supposed to die just days after your birth. But, as it turns out you didn't. You were very much alive till the accident. He said that your case was one of a kind, he, never in the 617 years since he began working had seen such a case. He wasn't clear on how you lived for so long and how you almost died yesterday." Aiden sighed. His eyes told me that he was apologetic but his demeanor told me that he was over this. Like he did not want to be associated with me anymore.

"Which means, Zarina, that your soul has to be protected till it reaches its destination." Myrah continued. " And guess who has been appointed for the job?"

Why does shit like this only happen to me? Why couldn't I just Die / Live alone and peacefully, was all I could think of.

"Who is it going to be?" I asked, Just to humor her and not leave her hanging. It was not like I cared, the fact that I had no idea how their world functions, also weighed on the fact that I couldn't care less.

" Oh, Zar! Aiden and I are going to be your caretakers until we understand and decide on the next course of action. We are so going to become besties!" Myrah Exclaimed.

Great. Stuck with the beserk twins!

What has my life come down to!