vices : a brallon story

bandages

brendon was a mess that entire morning, going back and forth between crying, throwing up and sleeping. poor dallon didn't really know what to do. he couldn't get brendon to eat, drink or even stay awake long enough to talk to him. dallon really just wanted him to bed able to vent but that's kinda hard when the person you're talking to keeps trying to suffocate themselves or cant even breathe for that matter.

around 10-ish, dallon heard the front door unlock. he sat the sleeping boy down and got up, going to see who came in. he was relieved to see jon and spencer sitting at the breakfast bar, just talking.

"are you sure you still.. yknow, want me around?" spencer asked insecurely, now very shy around jon.

jon bit his lip. 'this is all my fault' he thought.
"baby, ive been lost since the minute you left.." he whispered softly and kissed spencer's cheek.

"i haven't shaven in months, i need to, sorry.." spencer whispered being extremely shy and emotional. one second he was talking to jon and the next he was running into his room to go sob his eyes out. it was extremely hard for jon to watch spencer fall apart in his arms. but he wouldn't let spencer go through it alone.

jon sighed heavily  as he kissed spencer's forehead, tilting his chin to look at him.
"i love you." jon whispered and hugged him.

"i love you too.." he whispered softly, almost in shock.

dallon came out and grabbed a cup of coffee, startling the two.

"h-how's he-he doing?" spencer whispered softly and bit his lip hard.

dallon bit the inside of his cheek and took a long sip of his coffee.
"he's well.. im not gonna sugarcoat it. he's completely fucked up and im scared.." he whispered.

"ive loved that kid for years, in every way imaginable and to watch him fall apart.. it hurts. but it hurts more knowing that you couldve prevented it.." he wiped his eyes and jon felt his heart sting.

spencer leaned into jon slightly and all the sudden, he was crying again. jon ran after him and dallon went to go see brendon.

brendon was sat on the bed. he was awake and silent.

"hey, bren. how are you feeling?" dallon whispered with a smile.

brendon stayed silent and looked at the ground. dallon sat beside brendon, wrapping his arm around his waist and pulling brendon close.
"what's wrong, doll?" dallon asked softly.

he was met with silence as he sighed.
"pumpkin?" he whispered softly and kissed brendon's forehead.

silence.

dallon sighed and just rubbed brendon's back softly.

"it sucks knowing i was going to marry him. i thought he loved me. he was right. i shouldn't have reacted like that, i shouldve been glad it was a one time thing, i shouldve been glad i was the one he chose. i am nothing."

dallon looked over at brendon.
"you dont actually believe that, right? he had no right to be faithful. you were his fiance. you are loyal. you trusted him and he broke you. the damage he did is done and you have to suffer from it. he was in the wrong, not you.." dallon whispered softly and pulled brendon into his lap, letting the small boy cry once again.

"wh-why d-didnt he l-love me?" brendon whimpered into dallon's shoulder. 

dallon sighed.
"because he's heartless. he did the unimaginable and you have every right to be upset.." he whispered.

brendon shook his head
"after today, im done crying. n-no more crying. i-im gonna be better than i ever w-was and then rub it in his face that h-he fucked up!" brendon squeaked.

dallon rubbed his face, taken aback.
"that's a good mindset but it's okay to cry if you need to cry. but ill be with you through every step.."

"promise?" brendon whispered insecurely, holding out his pinky.

dallon only smiled and took it with his own.

"promise."

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sorry for the delayed update. i usually update mon, wed, fri but i was really busy these past two days. school starts tomorrow but im gonna try my hardest to not abandon this <3 ~h