Destiny.

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I hate myself.

I wish if I could just.. disappear entirely from this world, since no one cares anyway. I don't know why I didn't commit suicide yet, I don't have a reason to not do it. I mean, who's gonna miss me? And what will I lose? Happiness?

I let out a chuckle at the thought and got out of the bathroom. For some reasons, I always think about these kind of things when I'm showering. When all I do is watch the water slip down my body, and let my mind full of thoughts.

I wrapped a towel around my hips as I approached my messy bed and took my phone. Only to find two messages from Jimin, that created a wide smile in my lips as I sat down the bed and opened them.

Jimin:
Kookie, are you sleeping now?
07:09am

Jimin:
Guess you are. Sleep well and dream of me! Also I'm going to your school at 12pm. Since you always get out at that time XD.
07:12am

I giggled reading this in Jimin's voice. What I like the most in him, is how he didn't leave me for all these days. I mean, I expected him to not send me a message after the first day we met and never see me again because I'm a lame and boring person. I don't even get the audacity to call him or send him a message afraid that I'll look weird or disturb him then look annoying. But the strange thing, is that he doesn't judge me for it, just like I know he won't judge me for sending him a message back or calling him. But my shyness keeps winning over me.

I wore my blue ripped jeans and a black t-shirt as I got out of my room and headed to the outside passing throught the stairs then the hall. I bet my mom's still sleeping and Minhyuk went to work. The air wasn't so cold today, we could see the sun behind these clouds, that weren't totally covering the blue sky.

It was a nice view, since it's not always like this here in winter. I'm actually a winter person, but when it comes to the only and unique sunny day between all these rainy days. I suddenly love it, it kinda reminds me of Jimin. The only shining person I know between all of them, all of us.

But what I represent, is the rainy day between all these sunny ones in summer. The day people keep complaining about, the one everyone hates and just wait for it to end for the sunny days to come back.

I entered the class 69 and made sure no one noticed the bruises and blues hidden behind my mom's makeup then went toward my place just to find Yoongi sitting there, legs crossed and looking at me, I mean glaring at me with a smirk plastered on his face.

I don't want any more problems, so I just sighed and sat in front of him next to a tall brown-haired girl. Everyone knows it's my place here, since it's the only one where no one sits close to you and you're unnoticed by the professors, let alone students.

Mr.Isabel entered the class clearing his throat for everyone's attention. The other professor's words got stuck in my mind. I have to concentrate in this lesson for my mom to not be upset at me, since now she knows everything.

I felt a tap on my chair that made me jump in my seat. I ignored it and rolled my eyes as mr.Isabel started introducing us to today's lesson. For some reasons, I enjoyed listening to him. It's the first time after so long that I feel like I have something interesting to keep my mind on. Even if I consider English just a language, that it's nonsense to study it. I still found a pleasure paying attention to this class and feeling that my brain finally opens a little bit.