Fuck fuck fuck FUUUCK!! This whole her teaching me how to love shit isn't gonna work out. I can't stop thinking about her and that damn kiss. I don't think I can do this. Fall for her.....I just can't.
I don't want our friendship to get ruined because my ass has feelings for her. I will just text her and tell her that I can't do this anymore no matter how bad I want to touch her again. Feel her lips on mine.
Me: Aye can we talk?
Kaylee: Sure what's up?
Me: Sorry to do this over text but I can't do this whole teaching me thing anymore. I love you as a friend and I care about you. I feel like it will ruin our friendship.
Kaylee: I totally understand. I feel the same way Colson.
Me: Thank you. But another question though.
Kaylee: Shoot.
Me: Was I a good kisser? ;)
Kaylee: Horrible, just horrible. Sorry to break it to you.
Me: For real? Every other girl I kissed said I was the best. ;)
Kaylee: 🤦♀️
Me: So I was bad?
Kaylee: Noooo. You were good but we may never speak about this again!
Me: Hmmmm how good? 🤔
Kaylee: COLSON!
Me: I just wanna know.
Kaylee: You were a really good kisser...
Me: The best you've ever had? ;)
Kaylee: I'm done!
Me: Ugh fine. Atleast you admitted I was a good kisser.
Kaylee: Never gonna let that go, huh?
Me: Iiiiii don't know. We'll see. ;)
Kaylee: 🤦♀️
Me: Where you at though?
Kaylee: With Rookie skating.
Me: You hate skating because you suck?
Kaylee: Better to learn than never right?
Me: Right....can I join?
Kaylee: C'mon.
Me: Ight. On my way!
I'm not gonna lie ever since I caught Rook and Kaylee almost kissing, I've been iffy seeing them together. And that's not good on my part because it shows I care more about her than I friend. And i just can't.
After skating for a couple hours we had to get ready to go back to Cleveland and boy was I ready. I was missing my little Casie.
We all packed out bags and got ready to head to the jet. It was only gonna be a couple hour flight which is no biggie. As we got on the jet I seen Kaylee laughing with Rook about something. They were a little to close for my comfort.
I looked away with a hint of jealousy. I decided to light up a blunt and get a shot of whiskey to calm my self. After a few shots I was calm and high af. I looked threw Instagram and stopped at a certain picture.
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I needed to be distracted. Letting kaylee inside my head wasn't helping. So if fucking other girls to get her off my mind and stop these stupid feeling then shall be it.
(Kaylee's p.o.v)
I was laughing at a joke Rook said. And for a second I looked over to see what was Colson doing. He was smiling at his phone typing something down. I wonder who he was talking to I thought. Maybe it was casie but then again it's almost 12am. So she should be asleep already.
Why am I over thinking this. I looked back over at Rook to see him getting up walking towards Colson and grabbed the bottle of liquor that was in front of him.
Colson made eye contact with me till I looked away looking at Rook who was coming back my way. He sat back down.
"Wanna shot" he asked.
"More like shots" I said taking the bottom from him.
His lips formed a smile.
After having a few shots and getting off the jet and getting back to Colsons house I was Tipsy. Me and Rook were laughing at everything. You could tell we weren't normal. slim and Dub were looking at us like we were lunatics.
We were now at Colsons and it was 3am. Rook was passed out drunk on the couch while I was still drinking quietly to myself next to the passed out Rook.
I heard foot steps to see Colson coming down the steps still with his nose in his phone smiling.
"Who are you texting that's got your nose so far on that phone"?
He looked up at me walking towards my way.
"Nobody. Why are you still drinking at 3ak with a passed out Rook next to you"?
I just shrugged my shoulders. He took the bottle out of my hands.
"Hey! I'm not done! Give it back Colson!".
"No. I think that's enough. You're gonna get alcohol poisoning. You drank this whole bottle almost all to yourself."
I tried grabbing it from him but I kepted stumbling over.
"Sit down before you fall flat on your ass".
"I will once you give me back my damn liquor!"
"No" he said calmly.
"Fuck you then".
He grabbed my and put me over his shoulders.
"Put me down!"
"No you're drunk af and going to bed!"
Last thing I remember is colson plopping me on my bed.
The next morning I woke up with a splitting headache. I looked over at my nightstand to see to pills and a glass of water.
"My life saver" I said to myself.
I grabbed my phone off the charger and went through Instagram. I stopped at one picture and under it was a comment Colson left.
What the....?
I can't get mad at him. We kissed once. It was to help him. Nothing more and it didn't mean anything. But why do I feel upset just reading his comment? So is that who he was texting last night for hours? Her?
I can't get upset. I can't get mad. We're just friends, I kepted repeating.
