Show Me How To Love

Chapter 6

*Kells p.o.v*

I woke up with a killer headache. "Fuuuuck man. Why do I keep drinking so much like that knowing damn well I'm going to wake up like this."

I sat up on the bed to see their was a glass of water and two pills. I grabbed the pills and put them in my mouth. Then grabbed the glass of water and chugged it down. I looked around the room to see that it was just me. I didn't bring a chick home to fuck? That's weird of me. I sat their to see what I could remember of last night.

I remembered a few things. Partying hard, dancing, drinking A LOT. And I really can't remember the rest. It was like a blur. All I can do is ask Rook since he had to stay sober to drive us back to the bus. We didn't want to drive the bus to the club and get noticed even though some people noticed me last night.

I got up and walked towards the door to open it. It was quiet, so that meant everyone was sleeping. The bus was moving so that means we were heading towards Chicago. "Hey Luke, how far till we hit Chicago." Luke was the bus driver and has been ever since I had my first tour.

"About 5 hours still. We will be there around 4" he said back.

"Alright thanks man".

I went to Rooks bed seeing him still sleeping. I shook him till he woke up. "Man what do you want I'm sleeping."

"Dude what the fuck happened last night? I don't hardly remember shit."

"You always know how you are but this time. When we got to the bus I was to tired to take care of your drunk ass so Kaylee offered."

I didn't say anything back but just closed the little curtain. I walked over to Kaylees bed to see her see her still sleeping as well. "Kaylee......kaylee wake I need to talk to you." She made a groaning noise. "Kaylee if you don't wake up I'm gonna fuck with you till you do".

She rolled where she was facing me and opened her eyes. "Well morning to you to kells."

"Can we talk?"

She gave me this oh shit look which I didn't understand why. "Sure."

She got out of her bed and we both walked to the seating area. I grabbed a blunt that was already rolled and ready for me.

"So you wanted to talk" she said.

"Yeah I just wanted to know what happened last night when you took care of me and if I was a dick I'm sorry." After I finished that sentence I lit the blunt and took big hit. "Also thanks for the pills and water".

"You weren't a dick but you did do something and said a couple things."

"And uh what did I say and do?"

She didn't look happy so I must of fucked something up. Fuck kells cant you ever have someone in your life without treating them like shit.

I ignored my thoughts and looked at her waiting for her to talk. "We uh when you guys came in everyone was pretty trashed besides Rook. He took care of Dub and Slim but he was tired so I offered to take you to bed. I practically dragged you since you were in and out. And um when I went to turn around I tripped and you fell on top of me. Then you started playing with my hair and you started kissing my neck and stopped to the corner of my mouth. You also said 'I'm not good enough for you'. Not to mention you said Leah's name twice. You wanted mention sleep with you. Nothing more but I told you to just go to bed because you thought I was Leah and not me. So I just left the room".

She looked away after she finished what she had to say. I'm not surprised I kissed her neck and said I wasn't good enough for her. Because its true. I always had a thing for Kaylee these past two years. But she just so pure and innocent and I'm just.....me. I can't ruin her. I just wished I remembered that kiss.

"Kaylee I'm so sorry I called you Leah. I didn't mean to say those things and do those things. I just thought in my mind it was her and not you."

I couldn't tell her I have a small tiny thing for her. She probably doesn't feel the same knowing who and how I am. We're just friends. I just gotta keep telling myself that.

"Its okay really. It happens I guess. Well I'm gonna go shower real quick before the boys get up." She got up and walked a few steps than Turned around. "I'm giving you some tips today, remember?"

I nodded my head. She walked towards the bathroom. I looked down to see half my blint gone. "Fuck man! What a waste of weed". I totally forgot I had it in my hand.

We were in Chicago getting ready for the show. I kepted getting text messages from Leah. I haven't answered. I decided I wasn't doing this for her anymore. I'm doing this for myself and hopefully someone in the future if you know what I mean.

I read the messages rolling my eyes and decided to text her back one last time.

Me: Leah it's over for us. You cheated and laughed at my face. So get rid of my damn number!

I put my phone in my pocket and looked up to see Kaylee walking my way.

"Gonna give me those tips" I spoke up.

"If you wanna call them that. If you want you and Leah to work you have to be more of a gentleman. Just pull a chair out for her. Open the door for her. Tell her how beautiful you looks. Dont ignore her. Listen to her problems. Don't get girls numbers. Don't stare at them. Don't look at their asses or boobs......"

She spoke a few more minutes and now I was having a headache. She was right about everything she said. But you know me. It was gonna be hard for me to change. She still thought this was for Leah. And I wasn't going to tell her me and her are done for good.....yet.

I headed onto stage. After the last show I walked back to the stage and saw Rook and Kaylee what looks like they were having a serious talk since Kaylee looked upset. Rook was still talking.

"Aye guys" I walked up to them. Rook stopped talking and just walked away. "Aye you okay? What did he say?"

And she told me.

I was a bit jealous. Kaylee told me they almost kissed that one day and now Rook likes Kaylee and wants to try it out and kaylee isn't ready.

I couldn't be jealous. I can't like her like that. Friends.....were just friends.

"So uh do you like him even though you're not ready for a relationship."

"No I don't. For a few seconds I thought I liked him but it was just a heat of the moment kinda thing."

"Do you like anyone?" I asked.

"I think I do but he don't do relationships".

I felt like she was talking about me.

"Did you ask him?"

"No and I don't want To. He has someone else anyways."

And she was talking about me......I think.

"I want more lessons....please".

He said okay. I skipped going to the bar with guys. So it was just me and Kaylee in the hotel room.

We were sitting n the bed drinking some wine and eating chips.

"So now onto the sexual part. If you really wanna make love to her and not just fuck her, then you need to be gentle. No calling her bad names and choking her and well ya know what I mean. Be sweet....compliment her body. Say sweet nothings in her hear. Again, be gentle. Not everyone wants fuck all the time. They wanna feel the love your giving them. Not just pounding the shit outta them."

I started laughing. "Kells I'm serious." I stopped laughing. "Okay okay. I'm being serious. It's just that's not me" I said. CIt comes naturally when you really love that person" Kaylee said. I never felt love towards any girl but my daughter Casie. So to me it was still impossible.

Then I had a thought....

"I know I said and you said you weren't gonna teach it on me but I change my mind. Show me how to be gentle. Start off with complimenting me and kissing me."