Recklessly~ A Hot Chelle Rae Fan Fiction

Chapter: 35

Ryan's POV

I'm in more pain than I have ever felt in my entire life. I don't even remember how it happened, all I remember was me driving then everything went completely black. I don't know why Taylor's here tho, I honestly thought that she had given up on me and moved on. Then she started playing. I've heard her play and sing before, and I know how different she sounds when she puts true meaning into things, but she's never sounded as sincere then she did a few minutes ago.

"Why are you here?" I slowly choke out, barely able to speak.

"Why wouldn't I be?" she says as she runs her fingers through my hair.

"Well I just thought that you didn't care anymore, and that you had already moved on"

"Ryan, I still love you, with all my heart! And even if I did move on, I'll always be right here beside you, no matter what!"

"Well, did you?" I slowly ask, scared as to what she's going to say next.

"Did I what?"

"Did you, you know, move on?"

"I tried. I'm gonna be honest with you Ry. I cried for days and days, not giving my self even the smallest break to breathe. I sat there, watching the Notebook over a million times a day, scrolling through my photos on my phone, looking at all of the pictures of us and the moments we had. I still have that purple flower in my room from our first date that you gave me. It's wilted in a vase, but I still have it. I look at it everyday, wishing things were back to the way the were. But to answer your initial question, no. I didn't move on."
I didn't say anything, I laid there in silence feeling relieved.

"What about you?" she asked, looking down at her hands.

"What do you mean?" I asked, croaking out in pain.

"Have you moved on?" she rephrased her question.

"No, I haven't. Like not even a little bit. Everything I see reminds me of you, and it's driving me nuts!"

"Then why are we doing this?" she looks down, shaking her head.

"Doing what?" I asked, yet again.

"This! If I can't stand being away from you, and you can't stand being away from me, then why are we trying so hard to fight against our feelings that in reality, we can't help?"

"I don't know" I shook my head.

"Well I don't wanna get back together, unless I know that you won't leave me again"

"I won't, and I promise you that" I tried to explain, hoping she'd believe me.

"I can't just trust what you say just like that" she snapped her fingers, gesturing to what she had just said. "I need to know that you really do love me, and that I don't have to be losing sleep at night, worried that we're gonna get into another fight as bad as that one, and break up again" she went on to prove her point.

"Yeah, I get what you mean, and I will prove to you just how much I love you once I get out of here. I have no idea when that will be, but just promise that you'll wait" I assured her, hoping that it isn't already too late.

"Ryan, of course I'll wait!""Come here" I patted the spot beside me, gesturing for her to come and sit with me.

Taylor's POV

I slowly climbed in the the bed beside Ryan, cuddled up to his side as gently as I could without hurting him. His arm wrapped around me, pulling me close. I could feel his breath skinning across the top of my head, I slowly start falling asleep to the sound of his heartbeat. it feels like the way it should be. God I've missed this so much.