Learning to Live Without You

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WARNING: Sad some violence

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OOC Kakashi is like 27 in this

(Y/N) = Your Name

(L/N) = Last Name

~POV (Y/N)~

"You're so stupid! All you care about is yourself! The only reason why you want people around is to make you feel better! You don't have any real friends here in the Leaf Village for a reason. They. Did't. Want. You! You are faking being happy all the time but you're not so don't act like you are. You aren't are even a good comrade. (Y/N) you are nothing." He yelled so loud at me. Kakashi.... My boyfriend. I am his girlfriend (Y/N) (L/N) I am 16. There he goes yelling at me again, "You know what?! I'm done with you! We're over. I. Never. Loved. You. No one could ever love you! You are just worthless." I felt tears run down my face so many. Yea we have fights, but he has never said that to me. He was always so loving. It felt as if every word he said had venom that he was spitting at me. I could feel the death in his eyes... I stood there with a red face. I took every word, then everything hit me and I did something I never thought I would do. I yelled back at him. "Not like I even loved you! All you are is a lonely drunk. Everyone you loved died for a reason and it was YOU. Your friends, teacher, and your own father left because you never cared enough to save them. Hell, you killed your own love! Obito saved your life for what? Make you pity yourself and throw your life away?! YOU COULDN'T SAVE THEM BECAUSE YOU WEREN'T GOOD ENOUGH!" I took back every word as I said it. I felt so bad for saying it, but I kept going, I couldn't stop... "All you do is read that stupid book and put us on missions. I bet you wouldn't even cared if we died. Why should you?! It's not like you even cared about us." I regretted every word. Now I had even more tears coming down my face. He looked pissed off at me. He stepped to me and before I knew it my head snapped right and I lost balance falling to the ground. I looked at the ground realizing what happened... h-he punched me in my jaw. I could feel my jaw going numb, most likely he broke it. I got up with all my tears stopped, face red with tear stains. I faced him and smiled best I could with a broken jaw saying, "I'm sorry Sensei. You are my sensei first and that's all we'll ever be. I crossed a line, I forgot my place. Forgive me. Goodbye Sensei." I turned around on my heals walking out the door of his apartment, closing it behind me. 'He never stopped me. Maybe I'm everything he said. I'm worthless, but I will get stronger.' I walked away hurt, not fully physical, but emotional too. I touched my face and I couldn't feel it much I could feel pain starting to come. As I walked away from there I had this craving of him. Just wanting to hug him one last time. But I couldn't, he was done with me and I was done with him.

I walked to my apartment on the other side of the village opening the door and closing it behind me. I took off my shoes and locked the door. I had no windows in my house that I was grateful for sometimes because I don't have to worry about people coming though them. I went down the hall to my room and laid on my bed. As I looked up to the ceiling I thought about what happened. I accused him of loving someone else and some how it just escalated from there. My Sensei, lover, and now ex. I dated him for 2 years. I've known him all my life though. He knew everything about me, even the littlest thing like my favorite color or what my favorite ice cream was. But tonight everything ended. I passed my chunin exams and I am a ex ANBU and now a Jounin. All Team 7 is still together though and we even have practice tomorrow. It's midnight I better get some sleep. As I close my eyes I felt the pain throbbing in my cheek, and as always I didn't care. I just feel asleep.

I woke up early, like 4 a.m. early. We were suppose to meet at 7 a.m. I decided to go to the training grounds to get ready for practice. I got dressed in my uniform (design it how ever you want) and i put on my green vest over it. I walked in the bathroom and decided to see how my face was. As i walked in and looked at my reflection i saw a big blue and purple spot it was spread almost to my ear to my cheek bone to the bottom of my jaw. 'guess he got a good punch in' I thought . I walked out of the bathroom and decided to stop in the kitchen and got an apple on the way out of my apartment putting my shoes on opening the door, closing it and locking it as I walk off to start my day. As I walked to the training grounds I looked around and there wasn't anyone out here. I mean it is really early, but I would have figured there would have been some people out here. Oh well.

I finally got to the training grounds and decided to get started since we have practice with the team in a few hours. As I practiced I took out all my anger. My sadness. My feelings and emotions. I couldn't relay on them when practice started because HE would be there. Hours went by and I couldn't tell what time it was. I fogot all about practice I just kept training for myself and by myself. I finally saw that the sun was getting low and turned into a sunset, 'the sunset is quite beautiful today. Oh crap! Practice!!' I ran into town and I couldn't find anyone so I decided to go home. 'Maybe I should take a mission from Tsunade. Just forget about everything... they didn't come looking for me. They don't care.' I couldn't get them out of my head. They didn't come trying to find me. Maybe I am everything he said. Worthless. Unloveable.

As Im walking to Tsunade's office I see people looking at me. Maybe because of my bruise or something. I can't deal with that right now. When I got to the Hokages building I walk right in startling Tsunade. "Why did you ju-" I cut her off saying, "Hokage can I request a long A - Rank mission." She was shocked and wide eyed for a bit. Finally snapping out of it she came back to her senses and asked me "Why do you want a A - Ranked mission?" "I just need to clear my head and get away from everything." "Fine. Only because you can handle yourself." "Thank you." I bowed my head. She sighed and started once again, "I'm giving you a month long mission to escort a young man to a ways off village. I expect you here in a month. If not send a scroll telling me what happened and how long you will be out, so you will not become a MIA Ninja or Rouge Ninja. You will be going in the morning before dawn. If that is all you are dismissed." "Yes ma'am. Oh and a request, please don't tell anyone . I need this to remain a secret from everyone. Expecially Team 7.... and Kakashi." She nodded in confusion. I bowed again and I walked out thinking about my mission for tomrrow.

As I walk back to my house I see Team 7 walk towards me. I look at the ground and continue and I hear Naruto and Sakura run up to me Yelling out my name. "(Y/N)!!" I kept walking trying to ignore her. Naruto yelling my name a few times pretty sure, but I wouldn't turn around. Naruto grabbed my shoulder trying to stop me. Without hesitation I grabbed his hand from my shoulder and spun him around over my back and slammed him to the ground in front of me, spranning his wrist and shoulder. "Never grab me or touch me." I didn't even give hima a chance to respond . I walked over him with Sakura shocked and Kakashi yelling at me saying, "Stop! You can't do that to your friend!" I just smirked my back to him turning around on my heels to the left to make them see my cheek. "Don't worry. I'm not planning on being around for a while. Deal with your own crap. I don't need anyone to talk or touch me. Don't even bother talking. Goodbye." "Where are you gojng (Y/N)?" Sakura yelled at me as I tried walking away. Key word tried. "Also, what happened to your cheek?" "I'm getting away for awhile and my cheek," I turned around to face Kakashi as he looked down I just smirked out of guilt and regret. Feeling all that pass through me. "nothing important. Just got into a fight, it's... well... it's a reminder. That's all it'll ever be." I said looking at the place I was going wasgaoing to. But, I looked back at Naruto on the ground with Kakashi helping him up. I wanted to hug him and tell him I'm sorry but, I couldn't. I made my decision. As I walked to my house to collect my stuff I had one tear escape from my eye. Along with that tear that left my eye, so did my heart. I left my heart with my team that I knew would keep it safe,even if they had no idea I left it and changed from that person to another in second.

On my walk home I think of everything that has happened in the last 24 hours. How things went from loving to a abosolute hell hole. Now, I'm leaving hoping to die in battle so I can move on with my family that died at my hand.

As I packed and left my house I looked back and saw everything. I remembered what had happened in this house. All of my memories that will haunt me and those that kept me alive in my darkest times. I left a note on the table writen to one person. Kakashi Hatake. He saved me in my childhood but now he couldn't. This time he didn't help. I turned around closing the door and locking it. Hoping to keep everything hidden.

As I walked to the gate I looked around at this beloved village that I grew up in and adored. With all my strength I left. Not looking back. Not going back till it was time.

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Hey guys. This is the only part of this story that will be posted in this book/one shot. The other will be in a book that I'm making for it. I've been working on this one because I really enjoyed this story.

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