Nothing To Lose But You

Chp. 2

no joke cried making this. This chapter is gonna be full of memories

Matt pov

I woke up in an empty bed once again since the last two weeks. My head was pounding. I stumbled out of bed and into the kitchen, holding my forehead as i went into the medicine cabinet.

"Drink too much last night?" Blaire giggled as she gladly poured me a glass of water and got the aspirin. She walked over to me on the couch, a plate of food in hand along with the water and medicine.

"You're the best babe." I smiled at her.

I couldn't help it anymore. I swallowed the pills quickly and just cried, leaning against the counter. This is driving me insane on how much i miss her. She was always there at the perfect times. Always knowing how to raise my mood even before we dated. My best friend and the love of my life.

"Matty! You should get this one! He's so cute!" She squealed as she pointed to a small black lab puppy that had its tongue sticking out, very obviously a people person.

"I think I'll get him." I smiled at her. He was really cute and if Blaire likes him then why not? So i got one of the workers, signed the papers and the next day I was able to take him home.

"What should i name him?" I asked her as the small puppy layed on her lap.

"Hmm.." she hummed, thinking.

"What about Buddy? I feel like it suits him." I took off my fedora, running a hand through my blonde hair before setting it back on my head.

"Buddy? I like that. So from now on i guess his name is Buddy." She smiled and then turned her attention back to the dog.

Adam pov

"Hey Adam! I got someone I want you to meet." Issac said, coming from around the bar. He pointed behind me where a young woman was walking. She was pretty short with brown ombre hair. Not gonna lie, she's pretty hot.

"Adam, this is Blaire. She just moved here from Toronto. Blaire this is--"

"Adam Gontier. Big fan." She smiled and she was surprisingly calm compared to all the other fans I've met. Not to mention she actually said my last name right. We shook hands as she warmly smiled at me. But in her eyes it was nothing but sadness.

"Blaires also a bar tender and is gonna be working here for now on."

Sal pov

My phone started going off to see Blaires contact.

"Hey!" She then started sobbing.

"Sal i don't know what to do!" She cried.

"Baby what's going on? Are you hurt?" I asked worriedly.

"You gotta help me but you can't tell Matt! I'm pregnant and it's his!!" I gasped. How is that even possible?

"Alright honey calm down. Are you absolutely sure?"

"Yes i just got back from the doctor." She explained. I took a deep breath.

"Okay. I know you're nervous but just stay calm. It's gonna be okay and that's a promise. I'll always be here for you."

Matt pov (night when they got drunk)

I walked into the bar with Blaire beside me, texting someone. We found a small table and i went up and ordered her a cocktail and me a beer.

"So what's the occasion?" She asked as she took the drink from my hand.

"I just feel like we haven't been hanging out enough." I smiled at her as I opened up the beer.

"That's not your fault. I know you guys are a bit stressed since your brothers old singer left and your prepping. You've been under a lot stress." She said, throwing me one of her beautiful smiles that lit up her face. Wait what am I thinking? I shook myself out of my thoughts and took another gulp of my beer.

A few hours past and Blaire was pretty drunk. I had this idea as she started to come onto me but i know it's not a good idea. I payed for our drinks then lifted her in my arms. When we got in the car she was definitely doing things that could turn anyone on. Lets just say she has a hand down her pants.

I drove over to my place, the small puppy of course glad to see her, well more like smell her. I took her into my bedroom and layed her down on the bed. As I was about to leave, she grabbed my wrist. I breathed in, and started to take off my shirt and then hers. After all her clothes were off, i took her in. Her body is beautiful, even with the scars. Her lips are soft and plump. She's absolutely gorgeous. And that led to a night of memories.

I can't keep doing this to myself. I need to accept the truth. She's gone and she's not coming back. Its so hard to handle though. I have an idea though. I got up, grabbed my keys and wallet and headed out toward my car.

I soon arrived at the tattoo parlor and went in. They sat me in a chair and I told them exactly what I want.

When I was finished i had her name in cursive on my wrist along with a small sunflower below it.