𝓈𝒽𝒶𝓌𝓃 𝓂𝑒𝓃𝒹𝑒𝓈 𝒾𝓂𝒶𝑔𝒾𝓃𝑒𝓈 🦋

way to break my heart

this song has to be the best sad-song ever, but yet it doesn't make me sad??? hope you understand what i'm trying to say
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" god, what would i do without you? " your boyfriend, shawn of five months asks you

you guys were sitting on his couch, watching the goonies, cuddled up to one another as you shove fistfuls of popcorn down your throat

you shrug
" be very, very lonely " you giggle at your own response
" you're right " shawn replies, laughing as he watches the movie

you admire him as he watches the movie, and you can tell he was focused on the movie by the way his eyebrows slightly furrow

if only you could love him

" i can feel you starring " he says, pulling you closer to him
you laugh
" i just like looking at what's mine " you smile, biting your lip

shawn turns his head to look at you, smiling like a fool
he leans down and connects your guys lips, your arms immediately making their way around his neck as his hands cup your cheeks

" i love you " he breathes out as you guys pull away
" i know you do, shawn " you look down, playing with your fingers
shawn scoots away from you slightly, a small space now between you two

" y/n, baby, you know i'm perfectly fine with you not saying it back, i'm willing to wait for you to be ready "

but he doesn't know you'll never be ready

" but, do you have any idea when you could say it? will it be sometime soon? " he continues and you sigh, biting your lip as you look down

you couldn't possibly look into his eyes as you tell him that there's no way in hell you could ever love him back

" shawn... " you trail off, tears brimming your eyes

" i-i don't believe in love. i never have " you breathe out, shakily

" w-what? " his voice cracks
" what does that mean, y/n? " he asks you

your tear-filled eyes finally meet his, confusion written all over his face

" it means, that i could never love you back, shawn " you practically force out, your voice cracking
" are you being serious? " he questions, an eyebrow cocked

you hesitate before nodding

shawn throws his head back, running his palms across his face

" i just can't believe this... " he mutters, standing up
" are my feelings a fucking game to you? " he asks and you shake your head
" god no, shawn i would ne- " you start but he cuts you off
" no! you used me y/n, for fucking months. i've been used. do you even know how much pain i'm in right now? " he asks, his voice now cracking and you shake your head
" shawn, i didn't use you " you deny his accusations
" oh, you didn't, hm? so then why would you even fucking agree to date me if you knew you weren't capable of loving someone? "
" because i like you, shawn! you make me happy!! " you cry, and he bitterly laughs

" you knew from the god damn start that you couldn't love me, but you dated me anyways. y/n i don't think you understand the amount of pain i'm in right now. it would've been so much easier if you had cheated on me, at least that's something we could've talked out "

" we can talk this out, shawn! " you sob

" no, we fucking can't! how much longer were you gonna let me spoil you with my love, how many more dates, kisses, family dinners, before you told me that you'd never love me? " he asks, tears too, streaming down his face
" shawn i didn't meant for it to get this far, but i don't regret it, please, listen to me shawn " you beg
" you're only digging yourself a hole here now, y/n. and listening to you is the last thing i'd do right now. it hurts me that aaliyah considered you her older sister. how could you do that to me, to her? " he asks and you shake your head
" stop " you mumble
" no! " he exclaims

" y/n, i was ready to give up everything and anything for you. fuck, i know we're only eighteen but i knew that you were gonna be the one i spend the rest of my life with, be the mother of my kids, and you drop this shit on me? " he asks
" shawn, i know how you feel right now " you say calmly
" oh, you do, huh? because i feel like it's time for you to fucking leave " he states, nothing but anger evident in his voice
" shawn, don't do this please " you beg
" don't do what, throw away our already shit relationship based on lies? stop giving you the attention you got from me? " he asks and you bite your lip, tears spilling from your eyes
" please " you mumble and he looks down
" go home, y/n " he states

you sniffle, nodding
you grab your phone and slip on your shoes, before heading to the front door
" oh, and y/n? " shawn voice stops you

you turn to look at him

" out of all the shit you could've done to hurt me, that was the way to break my heart "

lil kinda sad imagine i guess. i know some people don't believe in love, and in all honestly i don't really believe in it myself either, so i decided to write about it. people can still be in relationships but not understand the concept the love

also, the inspo to this was ed sheerans "way to break my heart" and it kinda goes for both shawn and y/n. y/n not loving shawn broke his heart, and he relates extremely to ed's line "how do i live without love?" his life doesn't necessarily revolve around love, but it's a key part of his life, like he understands that in order to be in a happy, working relationship both partners need to love each other, which is what he wanted from y/n. and when y/n told shawn she didn't believe in love, he flipped out because he didn't know it was possible to not believe in one of life's biggest necessities

y/n; on the other hand doesn't believe in love, romance was pretty much dead to her before meeting shawn, so shawn really did introduce her to love, even though she never felt it towards him, it was all that she got when she was around shawn. y/n didn't understand that she was using shawn, since she knew she could never love him but went and dated him anyway. but she didn't do it on purpose, like i said, shawn showed her romance and the love she could never reciprocate. so that's why she wanted to stay with him even though the breakup was clearly the right choice, shawn generally made her happy.