Two Hearts Collided

Chapter 19: Work and New Songs

The world doesn't even know Carter and I have two kids yet. I go for a run along the beach at six in the morning now, starting today, the start of the first full day of us living in our house. Not many people are on the beach so it's nice because I don't get recognized too much.

At seven thirty I head home and I slip in from the dining room and walk into the kitchen. Carter is standing there on the phone, Justin in his arm, the phone cradled with his head and shoulder, a bowl of cereal in his hand, which he sits in front of William, who is in his high chair. "No. She wasn't even-oh, she's home. Bye." He hangs up. I raise both of my eyebrows.

"Where did you go?" He asks.

"For a run." I frown.

"Roxy-"

"I know my limits." I cut him off. "You're trying to manage me."

He pinches the bridge of his nose. "Please don't."

"Don't what?" I spat

"Don't get snippy. We're always spatting." He says. "You haven't even seen me this morning and we're already spatting. What happened to good morning?"

I cross my arms. He looks really upset about it. I glare at him for a long time and then I sigh and wrap my arms around his waist. "You're right. I'm sorry."

He wraps his arm around me, not caring that I'm sweaty, and we make sure not to squish Justin.

"I love you." He says seriously.

"I love you too." I kiss him and then walk off to shower.

I shower first, and then I take a long bath, and then I dress in a sports bra and sweats and go downstairs and work out.

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At noon I was done and I showered again. I dressed in a t-shirt and jeans and put on some vans and went downstairs. It's around twelve thirty. Justin is in his crib that we put downstairs be chase we got two and Matthew is nowhere to be seen.

"Where's Matthew?" I ask.

"He's asleep in bed." Carter says, not even looking up from his phone.

I stand there awkwardly. My period stopped this morning from when I had Justin so I called the doc and he said I can have sex. Finally.

He's typing away. I slowly step closer and grab his phone. I lock the screen and drop down on his lap.

"What are you doing?"

"I'm going to make out with my husband." I reply. "And maybe we can go further." I mumble, tracing his lips with my index finger. He gulps, his Adam's apple bobbing, and then he shakes his head.

"I don't want to."

Since when does Carter turn down sex?

I frown, still tracing his face, moving to his nose now. I like the heat I feel at his touch. "Okay." I say. "I'm sorry."

"For?"

"For being a bitch." I reply.

"I understand." He says. "But that's not why I don't want to have sex."

"I know that." I say. He rolls his eyes, both of us knowing that I really don't know that.

He rolls his eyes. "I just want alone time." He says. "I just..." He frowns. "I love you so much and I just want to spend time together. It feels like everything right now is about sex. I don't want it to be."

"Me either." I admit.

"Let me do cute things." He murmurs.

"Okay."