sunny mornings

9:05 am

9:05 am / july 10

yesterday, i didn't want to
tell you this 'cause it'll bring
all the aching back to my
heart , but trying to keep it
all in only resulted everything
to turn worse than before

before, i just sat on my bus
with my eyes wandering
around at the people who was
left since i was the last stop
i started crying out of nowhere
and i kept wiping my eyes, but
the tears kept flowing , it didn't
stop . i tried to avoid everyone's
curious eyes, but i felt their
burning pitiful gaze

i don't remember what caused
the waterfall to burst out my
droopy tried eyes 'cause i didn't
get any sleep the night before
as i twisted and turned on my
grandma's guest bed. i stayed
awake, staring at the twinkling
stars in the sky and i watched as
the moon disappeared while you,
the sun, rose to your beauty.

how do you do it, sun? how can
you rise in the sky everyday
through summer? even when it rains
which is rare, you always shine your
way through as if you're just not
going to give up on bad days

i wish i had that determination,
the will to wake up every morning
to see your beautiful rays , but
i'll try for you , my sun and i'll try
for my lovely grandma and my mother
and my sisters

i'll try

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