It seems like just yesterday me and Calum where sitting under this tree, telling eachother endlessly how much we loved each other. How we would be together forever, how nothing would come between us. Well thats what we had both hoped. No one saw this coming. And when I heard, I didn't think it was true. I saw the hashtag '#RIPcalpal' but thought nothing of it. It was only social media, most of the things that were on it weren't true. Thats what I wanted to believe.
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I thought all of it was a lie. I saw the the rumors and hashtags on social media when I was out. But then I came home and saw the ambulance. This broke me apart. 'What happened? What are they doing? Is Calum okay? Why won't they let me in? This can't be happening'. This is all that would run through my head when I saw them. I to the door, hesitantly opening it. What I saw next mad me burst out with tears. My angle was hanging. Only a rope,was in between him and the ceiling fan. Then I saw the note:
Dear Mikey,
This isn't you're fault. I just can't take it anymore. I don't know why I ended with someone like you. Someone that would cancle anything to just lay in bed and comfort me. To tell me everthing was okay. You knew they weren't. I knew it too. The only light I had left were you, the boys, and the hand full of fans we have left. I'm sorry.
Never forget how much of a beautiful person you are. Tell the boys I said I love you. And always know that no matter what, even in death, we'll be together forever. And nothing will come between us.
I Love You
Sincerely,
Your Calpal.
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By now the page was stained with tears. He used our nicknames. I held the note close to my chest, yearning to hear his sweet, soft voice one more time. Knowing that i'll be waking up alone, with know ome in my arms is gonna be heart breaking. Just knowing theres a piece of my life missing.
'And always know that no matter what, even in death, we'll be together forever. And nothing will come between us.'
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Just like how we used to say. And nothing will. I'll never find a boy like Calum. I'll never wanna try to. I'll never wanna love agian.
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I dont know why, but I decided to do this to myself and just make myself wanna cry. You are vury much welcome.
