Sex Nights

Chapter 12

I meet Dylan right now in front of a stationery store.
- Hey. - he says.
- Hi.
- So your mom is back and you didn't tell me?
- First of all, I didn't know that my mother was coming to visit me. Second thing, you are the one who lied to me.- I tell him by controlling my breathing so as not to shout in front of the stationery, where every five minutes people enter and leave.
- What do you mean, lied to you?
- I said I didn't need to go to the cafe and you insisted and then they are there. Don't you think it's a lot of coincidence? - I ask angry and looking him in the eyes.
He doesn't say anything and he doesn't take his eyes off mine. I don't know why I have a voice in my head that tells me to break up with him and another that tells me to kiss him right now.
- I have to go Dylan. I'll see you later.

4 hours later

There is going to be a party and I thought about going to alleviate the suffering I feel for having argued with Dylan.
I find Maya with Peter there in the corner of the party but I prefer not to go there.
I start drinking several shots until I get drunk.
I find a boy with brown and brown eyes and suddenly I kiss him. He takes me to a very hidden corner of the party and starts to take off my T-shirt.
Thankfully, the effect of alcohol is not long on my system and I return to reality.
- Hey, stop..., stop... STOP! - I scream. - stop kissing my neck. I won't let you have sex with me. I have boyfriend, ok? Leave me... leave me right now!! - I scream again.
I put my hands on my head and start to control myself not to pull my hair out.
I start to cry out of nerves and decide to leave the party and go to Dylan's house.
When I get there, Dylan's mother opens the door and asks me.
- My god Melody, is everything okay? Come in, it's raining outside.
- Is Dylan at home? - I ask her.
And that's when he appears.
I run into his arms as if we've never argued and start to moan.
- Dylan... I... I... Dylan....
He interrupts me and says.
- Shhh .... it's okay, it's okay. - and give me a soft kiss on the hair.
He exchanges pitying looks with his mother as they come to drown me in tears.
I finally fall asleep in his arms and he takes me upstairs to his room and puts me to bed and then lies down on the floor.
When I wake up at about three in the morning I start calling him:
- Dylan... Are you awake? Dylan... I cannot sleep.
And he wakes up too.
He gets up and tells me:
- Why did you come to me tonight?
- I did something horrible Dylan and you will never forgive me.
- What did you do?
I get up to.
- I kissed a guy at a party and almost had sex with him.- I start to cry at the anger I have at myself.
- You did what? - speak a little louder.
- I'm sorry Dylan... I really am.... I'm sorry.
- I will not forgive you.
- I know. I know.
- You.... you.... you make me crazy. Fuck you. - he says.
- You think you're the only one who can make mistakes and always be forgiven and come back okay? So let me tell you that you are not the only person in the world who needs forgiveness or making mistakes. The land is made up of billions of people.
He sits on the bed and tries to calm down.
After calming down a little he asks me:
- What made you change your mind?
- I was drunk and the truth is that I love you and I couldn't live with the burden of having a sexual relationship with someone I didn't even know and didn't love.
I caress his face and he picks me up and gives me a long kiss. We lay on the bed side by side and put our noses together.
- I love you. - I tell him.
- I love you too.