Unfair Trials

Chapter One

"O'Mara Child" says Ms. Perry

I silently raised my hand and she motioned me to come to the front. Lord knows I hate speaking in front people I don't know.

"Did I pronounce it right?" She asked

"No its pronounced Ah-mara, as if it were spelt with an A," I said

"Would you like to tell us a bit about you?" Ms. Perry pushed.

I shook my head in protest and ignored the odd stares people were giving me not like it was anything new.

"Are you sure?" Ms. Perry pursued.

I nodded quickly... I could tell from the look she gave me she was disproving of my choice.

"Fine, maybe another time?" Ms.Perry smiled and pointed for me to take a seat.

It was only 8:15 and the bell hadn't even rung yet and I'd made someone disappointed in me.

I decided to put in my earphones and listen to what was becoming my theme song. I set my phone to repeat and began to write drowning out the world around me.

Stressed out
Tuned out
My head spinning
So many tears unshed
So many words left in my head
Lingering on the tip of my lips
Wanting to be said
But instead their being held
Within the zipper that
Keeps closed the portal hole to my
Bottled emotions waiting to explode
Its so loud inside my head
With words I should have said
My only regrets are the words
I never said
Locked within my shattered soul
A girl beating against the closed door
You've just left me here
Laying on the floor
Me and my bottled emotions
It's so loud inside my head
With words I should have said

I nearly jumped out of my skin when someone tapped me on my shoulder. I looked up to see a girl standing over me. I quickly took notice that she had two other girls with her, twins I noted.

I slowly pulled my earphones out of my ears and looked at them expectantly.

"Move," said the first girl rather bluntly.

I looked at her and blinked my eyes a few times. She looked surprised at my expression for a minute but it was soon replaced by a grim look that made me question whether I'd seen anything at all.

"Did you not hear me, you're sitting at our table."

I started expressionless at the girl.

"Tiana maybe she's a retard," says one of the girls.

"Do, you, understand, the, words, coming,from, Tiara's mouth?" asked the other girl using hand gestures.

I silently stood and moved to the back out the room just as the bell rung and Ms.Perry reentered the room, I went into deep thought ...

I should've spoken up...

I should've said something...

I let them walk over me...

They think I'm a retard...

That's nothing different from home..

I felt my eyes water and decided to keep my mind away from home. How can what I have to return to be considered a home. Home is where you're loved. My home was just buried a month ago. Watching my grandmother being buried I felt as if I'd died with her. She was the reason I looked forward to the next day. My world shattered that day, along with my heart and soul.

That was it. I'd done it. I ran from the classroom sobbing into the nearest bathroom and into a stall. I felt like I'd just puked my lungs up. I fell to the floor and just buried myself in my tears.

"Hey, are you okay?" said a deep voice full of concern. He pushed open the stall and looked just as surprised to see me as I was to see him.

Fuck me !! I had to be in the guys bathroom. Could my morning get any worse?

I watched him blankly as he knelt beside me took me into his arms. I started to protest but he was strong and he smelled good, old spice blitz to be exact. I melted in his arms and let go. All I remember was crying into his arms and then after that it was pitch black.

When I woke up it was to the smell of smoke. I jolted forward no no no. Please not here. Sure enough I was in the basement and there she sat in that chair with her cigarettes.

"So, you're grown now?" said my mom

I knew better than to respond it wasn't a question.

"You know they said you sucked that boy up. You're a hoe. Just put you in this school and already you're making a name for yourself," she continued.

"I...

"Did I tell you to speak?"

"No ma'am," I answered.

She made her way towards me and readied myself for the blow to come. I closed my eyes and waited it didn't come. I opened an eye and saw her standing above me.

"You're just like your daddy a coward he should've took you with him when he left. But hell he didn't want you either. Only person who wanted you was your granmami but now she's dead so I'm stuck with your worthless ass. Ah'Mistake " she said.

Her words stung they hurt like shit I'd wished she would've hit me instead. Then as if I'd spoken to a genie she smacked me hard and I hit my head on the wall.

Lights out for me again...