Benjis pov
After I drove Jorge home from his "date" I was ready to drive my car off a cliff. This boy lied about his sexuality just to make me mad. Instead of driving off a cliff in my moms car I went to the drug store.
I got into and isle with a lot of pills a grabbed six random bottles and ran to the cashier.
"Sir?" The cashier lady said since I probably looked like a drug addicted that was crying for hours, i mean that last part is true.
" just- do your job! And let me pay for the pills!" I said just ready to die. And I could barely see since I was crying so much and my eyes were blurry.
"O-ok" the lady said in a scared tone while scanning the six bottles of pills. Once she was done scanning them all I grabbed the bag and payed the 34$ it was . I got to the parking lot and opened my door and turned the key and drove off.
I arrived at my house and I frantically opened the door and slammed it with the bag in hand. I ran up the stairs to the bathroom I couldn't wait any longer. I decided to text jey
Jey im sorry, I love you so much but I can't handle this terrible world any longer.
Jey im sorry, i love you so much but I can't handle|
Jey im sorry, i love you|
Jey|
|
He doesn't give a shit!
I grabbed to bottles of pills. I opened one and poured about half the bottle in my hand. I put them in my mouth and then turned on the sink and filled my mouth with water and swallowed. I grabbed the other bottle and did the same thing. And another, and another, and another, and one more. I realized what I just did. And that I was gonna die. I wasn't scared of dying I was scared of losing jeyjey. I grabbed my phone and made a tiktok hoping jey would see it. I picked the first sound I could find luckily it was sad, and I filmed my eye and put the caption as.
"I was more afriad of losing you then my life".
20 minutes later and I gave up hope I gave up trying and just layed on my bathroom floor lieing the TikTok sound play and play.
'Im sorry I didn't kiss you'
'But it's obvious I wanted too'
Jorges pov
I woke up at 5Am and I knew I couldn't fall back asleep. I only have one thing on my mind right now. It's him. I can't hate him. I love him.
I went on to benjis tiktok because I miss his beautiful eyes, his fluffy hair, and his rosy cheeks. Be straight. He posted a tiktok an hour ago of him crying with the caption " at this point I was more afraid of losing you then my life" is he talking about me. He can't be, my inner gay came out and commented.
Jeyjeygardi : i live you ✋😤
I instantly regretted it. I checked his snap map it said he was home. Thank god, I thought but then realized he could do it other ways.
Calling faggot 😂☠️
No anwser
Calling faggot😂☠️
No anwser
At this point I gave up. I realized it already happened, he's dead.
Jeyjey
Benji? Are you alright? Do I need to call an ambulance?
Faggot😂☠️ is typing.....
*faggot😂☠️ stopped typing*
Jeyjey
Benji! I know your there please.....
Benji
I'm fine jey.
Jeyjey
No your not. Who are you afraid to loose.?
Benji
I thought you were gay! You said you were gay.
Jeyjey
I am.
Benji
Then why tf did I see you kissing a GIRL
jeyjey
To forget about you. Benji I love you.
Im gonna regret that aren't I.
Benji
Jey, I love you too.
Jeyjey
DONT ever try to die again.
Benjikrol replied to your comment.
It was a tiktok notification. I clicked it so fast.
Benjikrol: I live you moree
I softly smiled at the reply and slowly fell back asleep. Goodnight benji.
Benjis POV
I started to feel terrible because the pills I took finally kicked in. I ran into the bathroom and started forcing myself to puke it all out. It didn't work. Right before I felt like I was gonna faint I texted jorge.
Benji
I don't think I'm gonna be here in the morning so just know I love you and don't hurt. I know I'm just the stupid shy boy and I know nothing but I Atleast know I fell in love with you. Goodbye jey.
I was balling my eyes out I don't wanna loose jey he's protected me so much.
" mom..." I said in. Voice that not even someone out side the bathroom door could hear me.
My vision suddenly went blurry and I couldn't see anything except for the bathroom door slamming open and a small figure of a boy standing there.
"B-benji please don't die on me!" This figure yelled in a heavy Spanish accent.
A/n: ok y'all this was a depressing chapter k Ik. But it just gets worse from from here k boo. ✌️😗 well it gets better than worse. K bye( also I know that wasn't the sound in the tiktok of enj crying but whateverrrrr)
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