artistry [yoonmin au]

8. trep•i•da•tion(n.)

trepidation(n.)
°a feeling of fear or agitation about something that may happen.

[yoongi f.p.]

"what are your fears?" jimin had asked yoongi one night as they laid in the grass of his late grandmother's backyard.

"i don't know, yet. not right off the bat, anyway. what about you?" yoongi answered.

"i'm terrified of confrontation. i can't confront anyone nor can i be confronted without my anxiety peaking." jimin said. it sounded like he was joking, considering the light tone he used and the airy laugh that followed it. but yoongi could tell he wasn't joking.

not one bit.

"sorry i confronted you about staring at me."

"eh..." jimin sighed and turned to yoongi and said something he would think about for years to come. "fearing the inevitable is useless, but it's also uncontrollable."

there was silence for a few minutes, the two stared at the constellations scattered across the dark sky.

"death." yoongi said suddenly. any spectator would have thought it was random, but the pair both knew what he meant.

"fearing the inevitable." jimin looked at yoongi and smiled. neither of them knew what emotion was behind that smile. they didn't really think about it either.

"of course. i feel like everyone fears the inevitable in some way, you know?" jimin started. "like, change. people fear change and don't even realize it. people fear their own emotions. people fear adulthood. people fear death. it's all things we have to go through. one way or another."

"people fear fear." yoongi added.

"yes, they do. people are scared of being scared." jimin nodded in agreement.

they stared at the night sky, wondering how long they could stay this way.

too bad they didn't know it would only last a while.

yoongi and jimin spent the rest of their break in peace. the country air becoming unbearable after a week or so of being there. they made the drive back to seoul.

on their way back, yoongi had received a message on his phone. it was odd for him to receive a message from someone who wasn't jimin or his group chat with namjoon, jin and hoseok.

the words he read made him boil with anger.

i miss you. please call me.