I'm in love with this girl who barley even pays attention to me at all she knows I like her and has been ignoring me for months and literally wants attention from every male ever I'm the last person she would ever want and I can't stop thinking about her and I've thought about every scenario and they never end with us together all I want is her and she wants everyone else and I don't blame her there all better than I'll ever be and this new school what if no one likes me what if I have no friends again what if everyone just thinks of me as the weirdo and I get bullied again I hate being in my own head on top of all that I don't even wanna go outside anymore I barely get out of the basement all I do is sleep and I don't want to go outside I don't want to hang out with anyone I just want to be alone all the time now I don't like the sun I don't like heat I hate going to my dad's I hate going to anyone else's house I don't even want to go to any store I never want to leave I don't wanna go to school i don't know what's wrong with me I feel like I'm always everyone's last choice for everything I'm always the last person everyone texts when there bored I've been inside for most of this summer I barely have friends anymore just people who talk to me when nun of there other friends will and it hurt and it suck and I just want to scream and cry and kick random things I don't understand anything anymore and before you say "Becca you have so many friends" all fake names ez always wants to come over than go to bears house or Ronalds house and bear and ronald have never texted me once Alez hates me and you can tell you haven't talked to me since June air doesn't even bother with me neither does Zizi John has bad things to say about literally everything Lee's too good for me so is Flowers and Riles cami hasnt even cared neither has Meia or anyone else so yeah I barely have any friends
