Matthew Gray Gubler One Shots

Let's Talk (Spencer Reid)

Spencer Reid x Reader

Fluff, Fluff, Fluff

This imagine takes place during the events of 13.01, the reader is placed as a member of the BAU. The reader is just an added member and is not replacing anyone on the team just for an f.y.i.

Prompt: The reader attempts to calm Spencer down while he is struggling with PTSS (and throwing books at windows) after everything he has been through in the past few months.

Hospital

"Spence, Luke..hey." y/n begins to stand up from the hospital bed, she is suffering from a raging migraine but is otherwise alright.

"Y/n, wait, sit down." Luke laughs at her and Spencer goes to grab her arms.

"I am okay, I swear. Any news on Emily?" y/n grabs her FBI jacket lying on a chair beside the hospital bed.

"Nothing solid, but we got some records that Walker had for Prentiss and Rossi." Luke tells y/n as Spencer is practically holding her hand as she begins to leave the hospital room.

"Y/n are you able to leave, did the doc-?" Spencer rambles on in worry.

"Yes, I promise. I'm all good. But he did say if my migraine persists I shouldn't be in the field." Luke and Spencer nod in unison.

BAU

"Oh you're okay, you're okay." Penelope hugs y/n as soon as she walks through the doors to the bullpen.

"Yes, I'm okay Pen." She gives her a smile once they pull apart. "Good." Penelope gives her another smile.

Luke walks over to Penelope and Y/n letting them know he has to leave to get Monica. Penelope, Matt, and Y/n are in the briefing room with Spencer going over the new information he just discovered.

"Prentiss texted Hotch?" Penelope asks practically stunned.

"According to Stephen's documentation, yes." Spencer begins to explain it to them.

"What's B-Cap?" Spencer questions. "Geography maybe" Matt adds in.

Y/n and Penelope both notice Spencer rubbing his eye, "Spence." Y/n speaks up softly and then Garcia, "Why don't we kick it over to the team? Maybe they can suss out-"

"No, get out. No time." Spencer begins telling Penelope, Matt, and Y/n to get out. "I'm really sorry, but get out." Once outside Penelope and Y/n both look at each other and Penelope speaks to Matt, "He's had a rough couple of months."

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Matt and Penelope were sitting down at the computer reading over the text message sent from Prentiss when Spencer throws a book at the window catching their attention and y/n's who was getting coffee for herself and one cup for Spencer.

Y/n walks over to them, they are standing in shock when y/n watches Spencer through the windows to the briefing room.

"Uh, you guys stay here okay?" y/n tries to reassure them, "I'm gonna go talk to him."

"That's a good idea." Garcia says frazzled. "He likes you." Y/n laughs "Yes he does, he likes all of us." Garcia looks at her again "But he likes you the most, you are like his rock." Y/n gives her a look before she walks towards the briefing room.

Y/n walks into the briefing room, books sprawled out everywhere, Spencer style.

"Hey.." y/n speaks to him softly, trying to stay calm with him. Spencer turns around at her and begins explaining his discovery of B-Cap.

"B-Cap is short for Banister caapi. It's a plant, specifically a hallucinogen that's found in a tea called ayahuasca."

"Spence, hold on wait." Spencer looks at her and rubs his eye again.

"Sit down, we are gonna talk-"

"Right now." Spencer raises his voice and paces.

"Yes Spencer, right now." y/n raises her voice slightly as she walks over to Spencer. She places her hands on his face attempting to get him to focus on her.

"Look at me." When Spencer resists eye contact she drops her hands and goes to sit back down, but Spencer stops her by pulling her in for a hug.

"How's your head?" Spencer asks a few seconds into their hug. "It's persistent." y/n laughs "But I can ignore it...luckily." As she finishes her sentence she runs her hand through Spencer's hair. "Would you please talk to me." Spencer pulls away and goes to sit down at the table, moving books off the chair causing y/n to follow.

"Took me 60 minutes to deduce what should have taken me 60 seconds, and if Emily dies-"

"No Spencer, don't do that." y/n looks at Spencer with concern.

"How bad is it."

"What?" Spencer asks her softly.

"You know what I mean Spencer, how bad is it." He looks at her before she speaks again. "Spencer please talk to me, I wanna listen." Spencer signs before he speaks.

"I-I know I can confide in you, I mean you're my best friend..but I just feel-" Spencer runs his hands through his hair and stands up again, pacing.

"Spencer, it's okay. I understand it's hard. But you'll have to talk about it eventually." y/n continues speaking softly to him, in some attempt to keep him calm.

"Y/n, I don't want to talk about it because I don't want to relive it." Spencer raises his voice again at her.

"Spencer, please. Listen to yourself! You said you wanted to kill Scratch earlier and you are practically yelling any chance you get." y/n raises her voice.

Spencer throws another book lying on the table, he walks to another side of the room with his back to her.

"Really Spencer? you can't tell me you honestly wanted to? Yes, we all want to kill Scratch in a sense but none of us actually wanna shoot him dead in the head...Would you care to know why?" y/n gives him attitude towards the end of her sentence, getting tried of Spencer being oblivious to his actions.

"..Why?" Spencer asks her coldly.

"Because it would make us just like them, wanting to kill for revenge. Yes, I hate that asshole who has been torturing our family, causing Hotch to leave-" y/n picks up one of the books on the table and begins fidgeting with it, causing Spencer to turn around in wonder for the loss of her voice.

"Y/n, I.." Spencer begins to get tears in his eyes but quickly wipes them away. Y/n notices and immediately gets up to give him another hug.

"Spencer, it's okay. I don't wanna make you feel guilty or feel like you don't have a right to be angry, but I don't want you to cross a line you'll never come back from."

"I know y/n, I know." Spencer hugs her tighter.

"I'm sorry I snapped at you." Spencer pulls away to look at her.

"Spence, it's alright-"

"No y/n it's not, I snapped at you for no reason."

"Hey listen to me it's alright, I promise, I'm a big girl, I can handle it. It's just weird seeing you get angry so quickly, you're becoming me." She laughs, luckily gaining a laugh back from Spencer.

"I promise when this is all done I'll tell you everything, okay?" Spencer asks her softly.

"Okay Spence, I just need you to remember to not shut me out when things in that little head of yours get tough." She presses her finger against his head at the end causing him to smile.

"I know, I tend to do that don't I?" Spencer laughs licks his lips at the end of the sentence.

"Yes you tend to do that, a lot" y/n laughs at the end of her sentence, and Spencer gives her another hug. "I love you, you know that right?" Spencer tells her softly in the nook of her neck "I love you to Spence.