disappear from everyone
i hold so close to me
fade away into the night
and hope it takes away the pain
and if i fall asleep forever
for better or for worse
at least i won't be awake
to feel the guilt and regret
i always knew
i can't even cry
if i wanted to
and i'm sorry that i lie
when i talk to you
i don't remember
the last time i smiled
and meant it
i can't remember
the last time
i felt something real
